hello!!! these are my babies
one is called classical and the other
called acoustic...
well, these are their names for now
till i have time to think of naming them...
classical has been lying around in my room
for a decade now...
with broken strings, rusty screws and dusty insides,
i finally decided to salvage it
and it still sounds as good...
acoustic is a recent addition
a Christmas present (:
and it's killing my fingers but i'll get used to it

singapore is safe no more

going back home alone now is really freaky
especially after 12am ):
some weird A** stalker sat beside me in the 147 bus
he was large build looks chinese
wearing jeans with bright yellow polo
for some reason i felt him staring down my neck
that's not the end!!!
i was busy minding my own business
busy listening to my mp3 in fact
then all seats around me were empty
he could have moved off to another empty seat
BUT NOOOO...
2 buff guys had to squeeze shoulder to shoulder
i could tell he was slightly off the seat
next thing i know!!! he pulls out his phone
types some random freaky question
and angles it to face me AND
stares at me... like he could eat me
i could feel his eyes molesting my body
AND I SWEAR I SAW A QUESTION MARK ON HIS FREAKY RAZOR V3
but i didn't have a good look at it
i was busy DRY-strumming guitar rhythms

oh goodness... did my strumming look that suggestive...
sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet!!! yuckkkkkkkkk!!!!!!

LIKE I DIDN'T NOTICE BUFF CHINA DUDE!!
I WAS FREAKED OUT

but i was cool... calm... absorbed at the scenery
and my mp3 player
my default look was on
and everyone know my default wears the words
"**** you" on my forehead (:
like i could EAT you up anytime...
scary to know he likes just 2 bus stops away!
yeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

GOODNESS! i have a strong feeling he's GAY!!!
and ugly one too...

?why are all the cute ones skinny?
?and the buff ones fugly?
?sigh?

morning training was survivable
the usual gymming then runs that were like
400m.rest.600m.rest.800m.rest.1000m.rest
followed by 100 variation pushups
my arms were dying... literally...
i could sense muscle death in my arms
after training training was simply
diving around in the pool...
some people just cannot make it =)

so many people in school today
kinda regret not being an ogl
they looked like they were having fun
or so i think they were
should have sacrificed my 2 plates of chicken rice
with veggie
for that ogl form... darnnit

i wanna go back to my life in malaysia
too much time spent across the causeway
good and bad

nuff said!

patience - take that

just have a little patience
still hurting from a love i lost
i'm feeling your frustration
maybe any minute the pain will stop
just hold...me close...inside...your arms...tonight
don't be too hard on...my emotions

cos iiiiiii
need tiiiiiiimeeeeeeeee
my heart is numb has no feeling
so while i'm still healing
just tryyyyyyyyyy
and have a little patience

i really wanna start over again
i know you wanna be my salvation
the one i can always depend
i'll try...to be strong...believe me...i'm trying...to move on
it's complicated but understand me

cos iiiiiiiiii
need tiiiiiiiiiimeeeeeeee
my heart is numb has no feeling
so while i'm still healing
just tryyyyyyyyyy
and have a little patience, yeah
have a little patience, yeah

cos the scar...from so deep...it's been hard...
but i have to believe
have a little patience
have a little patience

cos iiiiiii
i just need tiiiiiiiiimeeeeeee
my heart is numb has no feeling
so while i'm still healing
just tryyyyyyyy
and have a little patience
have a little patience

my heart is numb has no feeling
so while i'm still healing
just tryyyyyyyy
and have a little patience

(the music video is rubbish... but i like the words =) )

and you left us peacefully
right beside the Christmas tree
my joy my love my heart
empty it seems...

so who will greet me when no one's home?




it'll still be you (:

i'm having a bad case of insomnia...
seriously cannot sleep after 12
this is bad! my eyes are exhausted
fingers half mutilated cos of guit
but my mind just can't seem to shut off
and i have training tomorrow morning

what could be worse?

wth is wrong with dictionary.com!!!

i'm hallucinating... someone strangle me now.
quick!

oh no... i'm addicted to the guitar! =()()()()()))(((()()(

I can see the pain

i still see your face in my dreams
it hurts and it doesn't help at all
i still want you in my life as crazy as that seems
i still want you to catch me when i fall

i still remember the first time we met
there was something so different about you
your friendship was something i wanted to get
that smile when you said hi to me was so new

out of no where you called me on the phone
i wanted to sit there and talk to you forever
you were so new, so crazy and unknown
i just knew our friendship would never sever

two years and we're barely holding it together
what happened to the way this all used to be
i never wanted you out of my like ever
i sat there for a long time pretending not to see

we decide to go out and make it all all right
it didn't work of course we knew it couldn't
we couldn't even really stand each others sight
it shouldn't end this way but it did and i shouldn't

i miss you and everything you were to me
ten years from now we will look back on it all
we will be older and finally be able to see
that love will stand the test of time and never fall

-by nikki-

i'm back from sydney! aussieland. arrived in singapore at 0340 hours and feeling very extremely jet lagged. though it's only a 3 hour difference. very reluctant i was to board the airplane but i didn't wanna waste my dad's money by utterly refusing to step on board my return flight (i mean, my visa doesn't expire for another 3 months!) and the fact that i will be dragged on board by security on a handicap buggy with handcuffs after throwing a tantrum and lying on the ground of the customs rebellious to the fact that i live in a tropical country and drawing a huge audience. indeed!

i'm suprised singapore's security isn't as strick as aussieland's. well it appears to be because the australians will strip search you if they have to. i mean, i had to remove my BELT and run it through the scanner as i walk through the metal detectors with my bumms half way down my arse.

anyway, taxi rides are madness now. changi to bouna vista cost me a bomb. 30.45 sgd. the almost equivelant of the price of my bums. if trade was still in play i would have given it to him with a heart felt smile on my face and stroll back home in a pair of undies.

GO TASMANIA PEOPLE! FOR YOUR HONEY MOON AND DO WHAT THE BACKPACKERS DO! noo not love BUT... BUDGET LIVING AND SPEND THE EXCESS IN PADDY'S IN SYDNEY! WHERE returning BOOMERANGS GO FOR THE PRICE OF MY SOCKS! AND ORIGINAL ABORIGINAL ART ARE MACHINE PRINTED IN CHINA! AND FOR THE PRICE OF MY TAXI FARE! like the honkies would say, THHIRRTY DOULLERS AND FOOORTY FIE CENN...=))) (did i mention sydney has too many asians?)