HAZEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

OMG... tonight's haze is extravagantly parasitic. I'm begining to feel breathless everytime i'm out on the streets and it's beyond being paranoid that makes me feel this way. Visibility is round about 3 to 4 kilometers before everything else just appears white. IT'S THAT BAD PEOPLE! SO HELP BY NOT BURNING FIRE CRACKERS THIS MOONCAKE SEASON CANNN??!! THOSE PEOPLE DOWN AT WOODLANDS!!! AND I THOUGHT THEY WERE BANNED IN SINGAPORE!!! you could instead stick to finishing up all the over produced mooncakes and grow fat on them. damn the plantations which practice and support fire clearing. Took this on the way back from Aman's house after almost 2 hours of non-stop HALO2-ing. It was a nauseating game of gun fire, explosions, hit and runs and alien + robo + zombie bashing. Too bad there wasn't enought time to play Rainbow Six otherwise i would have taken a few snipe-shots with Aman's "i-already-know-where-the-bad-guy-is" tips and tricks... haha, i can just imagine "okay, open this door and it's the kitchen. there are 98274923874 bad guys and 1321232 of them are on the right of which 123213 are hiding in the drawers and the rest are squatting... the remaining will pretend they are shooting but they are not so JEREMY, you chuck the grenade and i'll frag them all with head shots! Then you join in and pick them all out one by one till your ammo runs out then we'll both kinfe the remaining. For the rest of the mission, we'll squat walk all the way to rescue! SOUNDS GREAT???".... I LOVE YOU AMAN SINGING KILLER!!! =DDD

PROMOS ARE OFFICIALLY overrrrrrrrrr... i'm already feeling the onset of post exam depression. so much free time and don't know how to spend it. studying will be the last thing on my wanna-do list this season not until the next set of exams come... i miss studying for some reason and i only wish i had more MORE and MOREEEE time to mug for the subjects i thought i could have done better. so many questions left blank and so many answers self-invented. I'm like this massive ORB of emptiness. i only hope for advancementable grades so i wouldn't have to experience/live through 2 fun-o-ramas, 2 orientations and 2 promotional examinations. Optimistically it'll be playing for one more year, rowing for an extra year and proudly being 2 years older than my classmates... =) coolnessssss

think math

Medical update... Stage one of LGN syndrome: child wannabe after children's day.


what an adrenaline-filled morning=)...even my loudest alarm clock and ringtone couldn't wake me up. I bet even a bomb blast wouldn't make a difference. I woke up just 20 minutes before my math promo exam and i did the following:
- straddle my bolster to get out of bed (kinky)
- strip naked *wobble wobble* and pack last minute stuff at the same time
- put on uniform and still pack last minute stuff
- tuck in shirt nicely
- pull pants down just below butt. well not exactly. i need lipo first.heh.
- grab my stuff and dash for the door
- wearing my socks at the same time
- say "bye bye" to my uncle 3 times
- jog to the bus stop
- wave for a taxi though my school was merely 3 bus stops away
- walk nonchalantly to the sports complex (yeah, i took my math paper in the gym... i find the abs machine particularly condusive to study/do timed assessments... just kidding... it's the swimming pool where we take our exam. i want my tan back =(... kidding againn)
I still had 5 minutes to spare before the start of the paper which makes it my record time so far.

i love chinese periods

life thus far

it's almost the end of the year and JC one is coming to an end. well almost. there are many things i would have changed if i had the ability to hop on a time machine and rewind time to trivial incidences and make those little fixes that would have made a very big difference in my life now. i would like to recreate my past like how i would whitewash my bedroom walls to cover up those freak vandalism marks of crayons and kiddy chops when i pretend to praise myself like my preschool teachers would. too bad we or in this instance, i only have one shot at life. There are so many songs on the radio which i sometimes sing to myself that would describe my obscene urge to turn back time. but it's not gonna happen. it's too superficial to want to reboot right now. i'm happy (i think) with where i am but maybe i crave for too much perfection.

it's gonna be my promos in a few hours and i know inside me i could have clocked more hours than the usual 5 i try my best to keep to while staying in late in school with canoeing friends talking about who has the loudest burp, which girl is "so MAN", the most preferred washroom to release last nights dinner ingredients, cute and hot girls, discussing how spastic we will be as canoeing seniors, how to kill our juniors during their first training and the list goes on. anyway, damn depression. it's too much sacrifice getting involved with the A levels but it somehow "promises" a future slightly above average and earning it is the way to go about reaping its "promise"...it's like having a needy wife who requires a demanding amount of TLC (Tremendous Load of Cramming). that's besides the point, the point is... i don't know what the point is. I often think of the other opportunities out there available to me since the day i recieved my results other than being clad in mass produced white and blue costumes everyday. i'm just here to let out my complaints. i am sentimental you know so you gotta understand... =( it's just one of those emodays i'm having. damn... see i'm feeling much better now letting out my thoughts rather than containing them inside me. how i wish i had a second jeremy lim to share such random thoughts with =) I NEED MEEEE....

TGIF

FRIDAY MORNING
AAHAHHHHHH... it's such a daydream sitting on the royal throne releasing UNdigestables. Anyway, i'm having sausages for breakfast and they're boiling as i speak. 4 cheese stuffed and 2 purely meat. See people, i told you i didn't need whatever protien powders. The real thang is right about a billion timesXXXX better that what comes off the shelf... OMG! try squeezing a cheese sausage! it oozes out from the membrane lining like you squeese pores on your nose! GrOsSSSsssSSS (i like =D).

ADDICTIVES
Oh and guess what, the last 5 days have been a movie episode marathon for me. The entire season 2 of Dr HOUSE and season 4 of CSI:miami totals to about 50FIFTY50 episodes altogether. Yeah, do the math. That's how crazzzeeee i've been aside from still being able to study while watching (OMG! STUDYING!?! MULTITASKING!?! WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOUUUU!!!) Yes, i know it's rather depressing to hear but ladies and genital-men, i've been studying... or so i think... but it makes the world a whole lot better just hearing it from me. doesn't it jie? i mean, many around me have NDE just hearing that i actually manage to FAIL terms. hmmm, maybe i'm just being paranoid. harharaaaa. My social points are just about averaging between the positive numerical side and the negative numerical side of the scale. Oh wait, go figure. ahhah =).
I'm feeling confused. About my sexual orientation actually. YOU see, i stomach an average of 6 kitkats a day. Strange it is cos it's a monthly thing and takes place across a few days (OMG YOU GAYBIAN!)

-POST-TUITION TRAUMA-

NoT tHe DeNtIsTTttTtttTt
The dentist visit was funnnn. Dr had to drill two holes in my molars and guess what, he sealed them back! HAHA irony!irony! I SPOTTED IT...and i still hate GP compres cos i CAN'T SPOT IRONY FOR NUTTTS... Certainly i could feel the drill head go *weeeWEEEweee * all the way down (hmmm, reminds me of that toe game my mom used to play on me when i was small) AND LIKE DUDE! ANY DEEPER AND YOU AND I WILL BE DRENCHED IN BLOOOOD! like....living thing = blood + more blood....Fortunately there wasn't any. heh (sissssy). But it was just calcium all over me when it was done. obviously. CaCHING *feels the moola floating away from daddy's wallet*... Time to get me a teeneweene tooth brush that will reach all the way back to my molars and then i can give them a good scratch every morning and night...

"TEH PENG PUAY BOTTOWW!"

...off season...

. i . wan . nelo .

saturday - canoe.planetshakers.malaysia

i successfully swtiched my tuition timing
saturday evening instead of the usual morning
it's a good thing really
then i wouldn't have to drag my butt out of bed that early
cos i tend to make my royal entrance after 30 minutes
0830 and i go at 0900 kinda thing
actually, i feel like i don't spend enough productive time on saturdays
so to maximise it,
why not canoe in the morning and
study in the afternoon then
return back to malaysia for tuition
sounds like the better bet
besides, my new boat requires lots of TLC

RAPTORRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!
rowing in it is not as simple as it looks
or so i think
as a starter i can't really twist too much
cos when the body & paddle is almost parallel with the boat
things get really shaky
it's like learning to walk for the first time...
though i don't remember when i did start walking for the first time =)
rowing for long is an interesting feel
can't afford to day dream like people do then they are in Ts
remember: day dreaming in a K makes you loose balance
that's what i can conclude from these past few days of training
instead, i'll have to focus more
and keep every stroke, my posture, kickings in check
i think i found the best way for kicking in a K
overheard it from some national coach who was water coaching in his BeAuTiFuL BLUE K1 NELO
(I WANT NELOOOOOOOOOO)
i tried it a couple of times and it allows me to keep perfect balance
for 30 strokes at least
i'm still drilling it in my technique
keep telling myself, kick first then dip and pull
"KICK FIRST THEN DIP AND PULL"
"KICK FIRST THEN DIP AND PULL HARD"
"KICK FIRST THEN DIP AND PULL HARDER"
"KICK FIRST THEN.... EH, POSTURE, SIT UP RIGHT... DIP AND PULL YOUR HARDEST"
"WOOOOWOWWHHHHH.... okay don't cap.. hahah"
"weeeeee, that was fun, OH I SEE THE SHORE! LET ME IMPRESS THE CANOE GIRLS"
well that's how i focus most of the time
though it's obviously not the best method
but manage to complete my 10k just 2 laps behind from the other RAPTORRRRRRR
inspite of capping twice or trice
can't remember now... but i know i lost lots of training time
i'm working on balance with baby strokes
thought i'm earger to start pushing myself to the limit
my mind wants to bring me to the comfortable level of 8 strokes per buoy
land training was shameful for me
it's my breathing that sucks most
i tend to breathe like i'm about to give birth and
just waiting for the doctor to spare me from anymore pain and agony
by recommening a cesarean section...
but i owe it to jeff for sticking beside me all the way

in the evening was the planetshakers concert at the expo
it was grand and i was almost totally blown away
first live concert and i didn't know what to expect
2 hours of jumping just simply isn't enough
i was JUMPING like a mad dog and so were everyone around me
hahaha... i only jumped cos the lyrics said so
"JUMP JUMP JUMP JUMP..........JUMP!"
then i zhaoed back to malaysia

malaysia.

RAAAAAPTORRRRRRRR!!!!

Today
Canoeing in the morning
Performance today was rather rubbish
K1 rowers are suppose to clock timings lesser than13 mintues for 2 KM rows
Again balance was not there and frequent tappings only means 10 seconds off the clock
Was using unnamed raptor and it was funkayyyyyy
Love it so much i wouldn't mind keeping to that boat =)
But it comes at a price
Have to really improve on my timing by alot
He has high hopes and i cannot let him down
Do not want to
Will prove it
You will see

National day evening
Went to watch fireworks with Samme outside the stadium
Realleh funkay too =)
"so pretty so pretty"
"oooh aaahhhh ooorrrrrhhhh"
Wonderful evening
The rest is our problem

AC guys CAN'T PEE FOR NUTS

DEFECATING in school is getting to be a chore these past few weeks. I'm a hygiene freak I admit and I'd prefer accidentally stepping on dog feaces than watching and cleaning up messy/inaccurate-precision tsunami pee aftermath conducted after that ignorant someone on a toilet bowl seat just to release my side of last nights dinner ingredients. Someone needs to urgently invent attachable weener handles and distribute it FOC. I mean, like HELLO, the bowl is 687321697216362198 times wider than you yellow/white jet stream of solution!!! LET'S DO MATH! WHAT'S THE PROBABILITY OF YOU SCORING A GOAL? 687321697216362197 DIVIDED BY 687321697216362198 WHICH IS LIKE ALOT!!!

STOP MESSING UP THE SEATS SO PEOPLE LIKE ME CAN SHIT IN PEACE!

love pecs!

WHO LET THE DOGS OUT! WHO WHO WHO WHO!

some damn hot dude i was trying out clothes with =)
















the same hot dude... this dude looks damn good in tanks. especially in the ones at nowurbanmale. TANK BODY BABY!!! new hair do(which still looks the same) + hot body + tank = something to die for!!!

My little extreme make over. It's the first time i've had my hair done in singapore and the bill came up to SGD$12.00 (RM27.12 - which alloows me 3 hair cuts in malaysia). This salon i'm newly in love with is in the vicinity of far east plaza and i like the way they did my sides and maybe a bit of the back. My copycat attempt of the previous customer was rather unsuccessful BUT what if what i have now floats samme's boat then wearing my lifejack JUST in case BUT in any case, i LOOOOOVE my new hairdo. Most of you wouldn't notice the difference but who cares(= . I've been needing a new style for sometime now cos most of the time i get my hair done in malaysia - like one of the usual barbers i go to where the indian men spray "curry sauce" like liquids into and around your hair - AND IT'S NON-PROFESSIONAL which mean i'll end up with a "faggy loook" quotes samme. hahaha. It's really a new experience cos i never get my head washed after a cut and they do it in singapore... GOOOOOOOOD HANDS MY STYLIST HAD. I'd hire him to bathe ME if i had the money *evil grins* OMG I SOUND GAY!!!! THANK YOU SAMANTHA ANNE LEONG! OWE YOU BIG TIME =D (dear mummy, samme made me do this to myself!)

BUT still, i miss my old hair. There you have it! My fugly self in that photo. I'M sorry derrick, made you look like a stick man in the background. Oh that was taken during canoe nationals btw (= didn't do too well but i'll wait for next year where my iron biceps will conquer the whole of MAC - OMG who's that big buff boy!?!?!?!. muhuahahaha. i love myself =) (dear mummy, samme made me do this to myself too!)

"YOU'RE WATCHING EXTERME MAKE OVER WITH YOUR HOST SAMME! TODAY'S VICTIM IS A HOMEGROWN GUY FROM MALAYSIA WHO SPENT 11 DIFFICULY YEARS WITH THE EDUCATION SYSTEM ACROSS THE CAUSEWAY! IN A FEW MOMENTS, YOU'LL SEE A MAJOR TRANSFORMATION FROM FLABS TO ABS (still working on those) "

To sammmmmmeeeeee... i promised you something THAT WILL TELL THE WHOLE WORLD.





I LOVE YOUUUUU BABY




tHERE YOU GOOOOOOOO!!!

To me.

school's islandwide are gonna begin its new term in a few hours from now. first day at school and it already feels like the holidays are wasted on unproductive doings. what makes it more "interesting" is what you might have been through this month. too much play but it's not like you give a dang about it. currently everything feels like a standstill and nothing is going nowhere just not the way you intend it to. just you and yourself in a world where the lonely are even more ostrasized only to find the will to live an everyday chore. wouldn't it make a difference to have someone by your side sharing an experience or a life with you? but when all that is gone all you're left with is petty cash and basic amenities that serve to sustain you through a twenty four hour day. maybe on a conscious note you need to get a life. quick. and i mean it.

what made you deserve such a beating from a promising path you already lead. ignorance. negligence. unpleasing. you sure you want something not worth the effort to bogg you down? or simply wait for an answer or a mere reaction from the opposite. so what if satisfaction doesn't fall in place to your desires? needy. wanting. turn off. don't ask for too much oh you better not. whatever the matter it makes little difference now. you're moving on.

fate - i'm betting my last chip and you better be worth it.

Whaling for scientific research? i don't think so...

This video shows how japanese whalers conducts it's apparent "scientific" research on whales on the brink of entinction. Thrusting explosive filled spears into your own head would be less painful for the world to watch than a whale trying to save it's life... Obviously the only conclusive "scientific research" here is to increase the economic growth for itself and its fisheries. Where's the biology, chemistry and innovation in that?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lLBolibPE4U&search=japan%27s%20scientific%20whaling
That's one whale down...

http://www.youtube.com/results?search=japan%27s+scientific+whaling&search_type=search_videos
That's another whale down... And more thousands to go...

Craig David - I'm sorry

[VERSE 1]

For all the years that I've known you baby

I can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting so cold

(didn't you say)

If there's a problem we should work it out

So why you giving me the cold shoulder now

Like you don't even wanna talk to me girl

(tell me)

Ok I know I was late again

I made you mad and dinners thrown in (the bin)

But why are you making this thing drag on so long

(I wanna know)

I'm sick and tired of this silly game

(silly games)

Don't think that I'm the only one here to blame

It's not me here who's been going round slamming doors

That's when you turned and said to me

I don't care babe who's right or wrong

I just don't love you no more.

[CHORUS]

Rain outside my window pouring down

What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry

Feeling like a fool cause I let you down

Now it's, too late, to turn it around

I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry

I guess this time it really is goodbye

You made it clear when you said

I just don't love you no more

[VERSE 2]

I know that I made a few mistakes

But never thought that things would turn out this way

Cause I'm missing something now that your gone

(I see it all so clearly)

Me at the door with you in a state

(in a state)

Giving my reasons but as you look away

I can see a tear roll down your face

That's when you turned and said to me

I don't care babe who's right or wrong

I just don't love you no more.

[CHORUS]

Rain outside my window pouring down

What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry

Feeling like a fool cause I let you down

Now it's, too late, to turn it around

I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry\

I guess this time it really is goodbye

You made it clear when you said

I just don't love you no more

[BRIDGE]

Don't say those words it's so hard

They turn my whole world upside down

Girl you caught me completely off guard

On the night you said to me

I just don't love you more.

[CHORUS 2X]

Rain outside my window pouring down

What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry

Feeling like a fool cause I let you down

Now it's, too late, to turn it around

I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry

I guess this time it really is goodbye

You made it clear when you said

I just don't love you no more

Dragonboat nationals

Oh yeah, i'm back home in malaysia =) Today's Dragonboat races was an emo one for me especially the mens finals. Every person in the boat was psycoed up to PULL their hardest and STRETCH FORWRD AH and PULL RIGHT BACK AH...haha...i was for sure =B... So nerve wercking i planted two kisses on my paddle shaft smack on the 'RUBBERducky' word. haha. yeah for those of you who don't know (which probably is everyone) i named my expensive db paddle that! Soon it was line up time and the organisers were PMSing BAD shouting at boats and warning them a 5 second penalty. The commands came and before i knew it it was ONEah TWOah THREEah FOURah until the first wistle for a hard ten came - silence. OH FREAK i could smell the finish line. I was close to falling off my seat five times then i had a flashback at the starting line - ep asked to counter his feet with mine if we find ourselves falling off. And so i did =) Every stroke was of ours was making the boat surge forward. Then came the three whistles for last burst. It was all over in a flash. Three months of hard training condensed into that few minutes of mind over body experience. It was all worth while!

my newbies

Firstly... let me introduce you to my new pair of walkies.








brownies side view













brownies ariel view







Secondly... my new pair of runnies








Newbies ariel view












Newbies side view

world cup fever

Its 0244hrs now. It's all quiet and everyone is asleep, except me of course, and all i have as noise is Corrinne May on repeat. Jeremy's high on coffee, something i had with ice before entering Singapore =) yummy. I could start turning on the television now and prepare myself to watch Angola get trashed by Portugal BUT UNFORTUNATELY non of the channels i have here in singapore seem to have a world cup channel. Even on scv other than previous matches which they tapped from the Malaysian rtm1 which had footnotes saying "Please do not adjust your television screen. blah blah blah is induced by blah blah blah which *hub recieved. Sorry for any inconvenience caused". Too much i tell you! First they don't show Live matches and now they blame Malaysia for bad recordings of previous matches. ARSES!!! So now i'm settling for *hub's "Live Commentary" where they POST TAGS of goals and saves and fouls and send offs. And of course theres the scores. (OOH the match just started... heh...)

3 more hours till dragonboat training in SDBA. Paddling with conjunctivitis is definately worth looking forward to =) and now they're telling us to bring our own sponges to sit on so that you won't suffer cysts filled sores on your butt. I don't realy find sponging effective though cos most of the time we're on the verge of standing especially through the last burst. Sponges are ment for canoeing!!! where standing isn't and option and sitting is mandatory. Or else epidermal cells will die and exfoliation/self-shedding becomes an issue to an extend that you'd be peeling and medical cream can only serve to relief and GPs recommend an appointment with specialists. A butt-o-my-god-i'm-peeling surgeon. If peeling's on the feet then i'd understand but BUTT?!?!

OOOH PORTUGAL 1 - ANGOla 000000... WHIPP YOUR ARSEEEEEEEEEE

My holidays aren't holidays at all. Too many activities in Singapore and too litle time to spend back in Malaysia. To an extend that my parents have to miss out on my aunt's BAZHANGs which are probably infested with maggots and microscopic ecoli as we speak. Sucks studying across the straits really =( except for the fact that i have relatives who COOK GOOOOOOD FOOOOOD. haha. My diet is coming along well too! low carb low fat low this and low that!!! sometimes i might as well not eat at all (Hey good idea!). I need surgery on my mouth, like pea size it instead of that gastrosomething surgery which surgically reduces your stomach to pea size! My MOUTH is too big and getting bigger and demands alot more that bite sized food. Maybe i should take up Gastronomy.

ANGOLA HAS 10 FOULS!!! OMG THEY MUST SUCK...HAHAHAHA... PORT - U - GAL.ahahaha sounds soooo wrong. anyway.

Kay i'm gonna sleep now... this is getting tiring... seriously...
Samme come home quick! 3ams aren't that fun anymore =)

My chinese is improving.

I can write now =)