that's more like it

okay now i WANT this
more affordable
heehee....

this is like the WRONGEST time to get
GUITAR ADDICTED!!!

I WANT THIS
martin and co est 1833 GUITARRRRRRRRRRRRR
i need USD1200+++
pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee (=

yummy!

...nothing beats
making
my own sounds
on the guitar...

change the strings
it's a new sound altogether

disturbing

Singapore's internet is disturbingly slower than the internet in Malaysia

you're way to far fetched for me at this point

and you... well you seem likely but you don't get many unnatural deaths
good thing you don't need economics


perhaps

no thank you (=

I can't sleep...

some thing's keeping me from enjoying my daily retirement

It's like something i haven't done today...

I'm sure i covered at least 90% of my chemistry syllabus
for tomorrow's exam

yeah i did and i still can't sleep...

sigh...

i like macdonalds (=

i need a happy meal

but their free toys suck right now...

go sleep jeremy!

oh finally, my first ever accident in almost two years of driving..haha..cracked my tuition teacher's flowerbed this morning while parking the car.nifty scratch to the left front sport rim of the car and two large cracks to the concrete flower bed.hahaha..something's wrong with me today.i even knocked over someone's garbage bin..i'm getting old already..and i beat the traffic light yesterday..A levels take so long to end..i don't know what to study now!

i hate economics... i really do...

argh... i forced myself to stay up till 0430hrs this morning just to watch scrubs season one on youtube and when i woke up again this morning, all the entire episodes were removed by the user!!!i was barely even halfway through the season(double frick)... scrubs was suppose to help me through my exam season and they removed it... sighh... darn IP regulations... now i have to find something else to watch on youtube or get a new tv series in Malaysian or i might just kill myself... yeah God's trying to say i should start studying now...

anyway, my room's in a total mess now. i had a study table - now filled with notes and a laptop that already takes up more than half the space leaving and empty 10 by 10 cm area for my little high tech mouse, there once were two chairs - now covered with my big big poser duffle bag and stacked with more notes, a really dandy stack up table - now filled to it's every inch with notes... oh yah, and not to forget the bed i used to have too! it's currently a semi storage area for more of my notes and TYSes. i can't wait to get rid of them...(=

ooh my neighbours are playing mahjong...

good afternoon!!!

right smack in the middle of my A levels now and five more papers to go. good thing about this is that there's a one week break for BCME students and, as you can see, me has already wasted it revamping my blog...next week's chem, econs, chem, bio, bio followed by freedom (= although i haven't planned out my itinerary for the next one and a half months since the army is calling me in early...anyway, this freedom includes getting a new mid-size Macpac bag for China, self photography, random excursions to Singapore, loads of golf (suddenly i could hit really well), chauffering parents and friends who will be on parent-less holiday with me to GENTINGS (i'm sure they'll let us(= ) and perhaps recycling my A level notes since i'll never be needing them ever again...for the time being at least...

there, i've planned out my holiday...

happy deepavali my fello indian friends...and those partial indians

hello! right now i'm in the midst of my Alevel examinations... i'm so bored of studying... General Paper is over so now i can let my english rot in hell (= oh and math paper too... heh... *daydreams*... for the many many people who are trying to get in touch with me within this "busy" period of mine, i'm SORRIE... i keep telling myself "i'll reply later i'll say hi later" which i eventually ignore over time... yeah... okay... see studying's causing my brain to function below capacity... studying's bad... stop studying... yup... stop

I picture you in the sun wondering what went wrong
And falling down on your knees asking for sympathy
And being caught in between all you wish for and all you seen
And trying to find anything you can feel that you can believe in

May God's love be with you
Always
May God's love be with you

I know i would apologize if i could see your eyes
'Cause when you showed me myself i became someone else
But i was caught in between all you wish for and all you need
I picture you fast asleep
A nightmare comes
You can't keep awake

May God's love be with you
Always
May God's love be with you

'Cause if i find
If i find my own way
How much will i find
If i find
If i find my own way
How much will i find
You

I don't know anymore
What it's for
I'm not even sure
If there is anyone who is in the sun
Will you help me to understand
'Cause i been caught in between all I wish for and all I need
Maybe you're not even sure what it's for
Any more than me

May God's love be with you
Always
May God's love be with you

i welcome myself back into the blogger world. i haven't updated since may, as you may have noticed.

i'm in the middle of my canoeing nationals now and the first day of it has been somewhat promising. rowing T2 with my partner, we managed a place in the semi-finals. we have the step up our competition tomorrow... today was such an enlightening day for me and probably many others. it spoke to me and moved my heart tremendously. when i started off in acjc canoe, training felt like a drag. i didn't know why trainings had to be so tough, so long and very much meaningless. why we had to train almost everyday, i had no idea cos at that point in time, there was nothing in mind i had or wanted to row for. every stroke i pulled and every lap i successfully completed only felt like a step towards completing training for the day. my vision and hopes for canoeing were non-existent. i felt like a hardcore amateur...

everything changed when i had someone to fight it with. and that is when my story started... now i realise that there's much to fight for when you're out there rowing either during training or at competitions. and in everyone i find a reason and a cause to row for. i must thank my coaches for inspiring us to give it our all as we rowed our final few sessions at mac..

well, there's so much i can say about my last few days of canoeing... but i don't know where to begin... i'm filled with so much mixed feelings now...

anyway, all i can say is... i have so many things to row for now!

i need to rest... tomorrow's another big day (=

goodnight people!

damn...why do you make me cry?

take that - "Like I Never Loved You At All"

Where, where are the stars?
The one that we used to call ours
Can't imagine it now
We used to laugh till we fell down.

The secrets we had, are now in the past
From something to nothing, tell me.

How did we lose our way?
It's hard to remember
All that we shared
Now we both have separate lives
From lovers to strangers, now alone
There's no one catching my fall
No one to hear my call
It's like I never loved you at all.

Now you're so far away
And I see our star is fading
One too many times
Guess it just got tired of waiting around.

The nights that we thought, if these walls could talk
From something to nothing, tell me.

So now does he give you love
Is it only me now that's thinking of, what we had and what we were
Did you ever care, baby was I ever there?

take that - Hold On

We've been many times before
Leaving rooms and slamming doors
We're climbing up the bedroom walls
Sometimes we make it so frustrating
I touch your mouth, I touch your lips
The answers are our fingertips
Not giving up or giving in
Why are we so complicated?

Oh tell me what to say, tell me
To make it all ok

Chorus:
I don't wanna see you hurting
Just hold on
Just hold on to me
I don't wanna see you crying
So hold on
So hold on to me

I'm tryin' to think of what to do
To really make it up to you
So many truths, too many lies
Making love can be so crazy
I find myself back here again
Asking you to let me in
You know it's time, we need to change
How can we live with all these maybes?

There are no words that say, no words
To make it go away

Chorus

'Cause baby it's alright
I'm staying here tonight
So hold on

Just tell me what to say
To let you know

I'll always stay

take that - back for good

I guess now it's time for me to give up
I feel it's time
Got a picture of you beside me
Got you're lipstick mark still on your coffee cup
Got a fist of pure emotion
Got a head of shattered dreams
Gotta leave it, gotta leave it all behind now

Whatever I said, whatever I did I didn't mean it
I just want you back for good
Whenever I'm wrong just tell me the song and I'll sing it
You'll be right and understood

Unaware but underlined I figured out this story
It wasn't good
But in the corner of my mind I celebrated glory
But that was not to be
In the twist of separation you excelled at being free
Can't you find a little room inside for me

Whatever I said, whatever I did I didn't mean it
I just want you back for good
Whenever I'm wrong just tell me the song and I'll sing it
You'll be right and understood

And we'll be together, this time is forever
We'll be fighting and forever we will be
So complete in our love
We will never be uncovered again

Whatever I said, whatever I did I didn't mean it
I just want you back for good
Whenever I'm wrong just tell me the song and I'll sing it
You'll be right and understood

my LOVEY DOVEY!!
...TRI...
*muacks*

[but still, nothing will ever replace you...my true love (:]

i really hope my dad gets that golden retriever
(:

BUSTY jeremy

just got back home from a full day's activity
school couldn't be more B*R*NG...

senior junior interaction (SJI) was really fun
really felt the bond between the juniors and SOME seniors
especially those whom i've only made eye contact with
gone are the days of "OH HI... BYE BYE!"
now it's the exchange of sweet juicy gossip
that has been dying to spread for a long time already

all i can say now is... i really like my juniors (:

thanks guys!

last night

oh no...
you've found my weakness
it's you

[just so you know
this feeling is taking control of me
and i can't help it...]

chinese new year

so it's finally here
the year of the pig
always been looking forward to this particular festive day
well besides the angpaos
sweet mand oranges, pineapple tarts, and house guests are just some on the major draw factors for me
spring cleaning and babysitting little children coming in last
thank goodness i reformatted my computer
(not on purpose... really! *evil grins*)
now the little kiddies have nothing to play
so my CoOl AsS room will be out of bound for them(:
unless they wanna play guitar...
which is a zero in a billion chances
... even if they do i'll be stashing away my COOL guitar
ha... "hello kids! go play with your food(:"

singaporeans, you guys are missing out on the spirit of CNY
especially when the clock strikes 12
if you read last year's post i said it felt like a war zone.
this year it's like hearing Hiroshima's atomic bomb go off
seriously a 360surround sound of fireworks
and when everything ends you see clouds of smoke filling the entire sky
and even enter your room through the windows
it's just breath taking...
and i mean literally
so what do you guys have?
channel 5 wishing you "A HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!"
haha...



[ guess it's too late now... but i'm having such a good time, i'm having a ball (: ]

valentine's day

been a long time since i've spent this day alone
not that it makes me absolutely suicidal
today made me realise something more important
more important than a one-to-one fondness
look around you and you'll know what i mean
take some time and ponder...
thoughts away from that special or seemingly special person
and reevaluate the meaning of LOVE
what about your classmates that make school a more worth while chore
what about your best friends that make "hanging out" a look forward to
what about your relatives whom we meet on occasions
what about your siblings who come in handy in times cheerlessness
what about your parents who embraces you in theirs invisible arms even without you knowing
what about our lord god who LOVED us first...
have you told everyone who have made an impact in your life the 3 special words?
(:

AC is really valentine happening
decorations everywhere and flowers from cauliflowers to crimson roses
i dare say everyone loves everyone
except for me and the people i hate...
got a sunflower from Pravin and Aman via that inter JC thingamajig
was absolutely surprised cos i figured i'd be leaving school empty handed
again, not that i'd turn suicidal
and by mid day my shoe bag had been filled with sweets, milk chocolate and everything nice
and today
i got my first ever ROSE from a girl i HARDLY KNEW in person(:
mg girl
but it was SJI la
juniors were forces to do it...
they were probably preassigned
but that's okay...
(thanks jean... not like you'd read my blog... but i was stunned it was you... it's a pretty flower indeed!!! (: )
so i walked around school with two stems in my bag
like it would wither and eventually evolve into notes
so here they sit in my room...
one in a pepsi bottle and another in my canoeing FILA bottle
under a florescent lamp of mine

[but i gave my heart away a long time ago with a vow that of unending LOVE...]

it's a Tuesday

you know how it feels to wake up
and then wanting to skip whatever going on for the day and just
continue sleeeeping...
today was one of those days for me
even a BOTTLE of coffee couldn't pry my eyes open
absolutely exhausted
i had to hibernate... no choice
tuesday is my longest day
what could be more worse than ending the day with
Physical Education and Canoeing training
one after the other
oh no i'm not complaining
i'm just enlightening everyone on how i spend my days
which technically makes it seem like less of a complaint

fine.... i'm complaining...

Bio test on respiration and photosynthesis was doable
though i only expect half my answers to carry ticks...
and the rest anything else other than ticks...
so how does cyanide affect respiration people?
i don't remember that being in any of my notes
it'll be lot easier learning through experience
maybe then i'd be able to answer that mind boggling question
anyway,
hope for my day only came when the last question i actually successfully answered
was my name...

i might sleep early.

cheers!

but you see forever now
i'll be waiting for you......

all to myself

rocks having my MALAYSIAN house all to myself
it feels like i'm living on my own
but only i don't have to pay the bills
soon i'll be driving myself to church
where i will dominate the PA systems
which grants me the ability to "chipmunk" the voice of my pastor
[entertainment +1]
hahaha...

woke up with the house alarm this morning
i thought it was still DARK night
when i realised the blanket was over my face
so somebody wasn't trying to play a fool
just the wind triggering the doors i reckon
but anyway i scouted around the house with my Kbar at hand
ready to castrate

"eu chakap enggris macham shiok ah"
(the way you speak english is sooooo .... erm... "shiok")?
that's what the taxi driver told me yesterday
he was impressed at how english flowed out from my mouth
didn't know how to respond cos my bahasa sucks to the max
malaysia is the only country you can make do without english

5 o'clock in the morning now and everyone's asleep
was only suppose to nap the night before
but somehow i manage to convince myself to sleep through the night
guess i was really shagged cos of the "lack of sleep" (which i catch up on during lectures)
and training
gymed yesterday (:
not that it was fun... but i gave my all
then a rugby match after that where acjc couldn't beat ntu
depressing...

for some strange reason it's been rather cold in college these few days
now i have to bring a jacket/hoodie wherever i go
which makes my bag rather bulky and big...
you see, i see myself attending college with as little load as possible

speaking of it, i'm eyeing sac bags which are rather nice to sling on
but then i reconsidered
don't think they'll look good on me unless i'm skinny and unbuff
i'm gonna be faithful to deuter
these days it's really hard to find deuters
alot of bag shops don't sell them anymore ):
but i know a place that does... which i frequent every week
hahahaha... i'm looking for a 30 to 40 liter bag
nice and spaciousssssssssssssssss

it's friday, the week passes really fast
soon term exams will be here... sigh

kk, better get back to my comfort zone
for just a few more minutes of rest(:

buff king
mister pecs
pecs
booby man
jermey
oi
eh

aka jeremy

bleah

so this is what it's like to be j2
all the work i have to get through at the end of everyday
i absolutely think prison break season one
which i just bought recently
is gonna take up my entire term
i'm done with episode 1 to 4
just now only actually
but then again,
i might be able to complete it before next week
really addictive show

(:

haven't been learning new songs on the guit
it's random play now... gotta catch up on "revision"
and little lessons for people who desperately wanna learn "you and me"
ran out of ideas of what song would sound good on my guits
i can't wait till Saturday
guitar lessons in church...
i'll have to lug my acoustic in and out of this country
bring it for saturday trainings if i have to
then head straight back home (malaysia)
oh how i wish the week would fly by

(:

coming friday is besties night out!!!
haven't seen them since last year.
haahaa

and all the roads we have to walk are winding
and all the lights that lead us there are blinding
there are many things that i would like to say to you
but i don't know howwww?

cause maybe
you're gonna be the one that saves me?
and afterall
you're my wonderwall

(:

... okay i don't think i can continue with FIVE... can't think of any
heck

heh

SWIM PE is this thursday... should be "fun"
i reckon...
see my classmates in their TIGHT sexy triangles *drools*

so what has one year in acjc done to me

it's changed me quite alot actually.
compared to my "previous" self a few years back.
now as i watch the newbbies roll around
in the wet and muddy field,
brave the water filled plastic bags and
cheer their hearts out at the bleachers...
i remind myself of how i once was

here's what i've done to myself.
in just one year!

ONE!
remember me in my mushroom-cut nerdy hairdo

an eight bucks cut in RAJA BARBER
someplace in malaysia
i honestly thought my hairdo is as cool as it can get.
well, in marsiling at least...
here it's a whole new fashion...
slope cut is way out of fashion now!

it's now about hairdos that comes close to challenging school regulations

TWO!
just about 2 months back,
i began to crave learning the guitar
almost everyone plays an instrument.
if it's not the piano, it's the guitar.
i gave up on piano in secondary school
didn't like getting used to a new teacher
who demanded more theory books
I've always wanted to PLAY an instrument
skip the theory bit
and jump straight into Mozart or
that whatchamacallit guy with the white mask
(scroll down to previous post to see the guits)
i mean yeah it's good to know treble clefs and
scribble musical notes and all
but i like learning through patterns
like what guitar tabs are for.
cheat codes(:
now i'm playing my babies everyday
they keep me company when i'm lonely
at home...

THREE!
more muscle mass... probably
i managed 20 pull ups sometime back
one year to train up for NS
nuff said

FOUr!
i swear my handwriting is getting neater!
i like it sometimes.
starting to look like a girls'

FIVE!
i'm tired... i'll continue with 5 some other time (:

look at me.
my hair is too long for school.

it's the last day before school term starts
J2 already... one year went by so quickly
while everyone i'm talking to now rush through their undone assignmants
here i am searching for guitar tabs...
and strumming acoustic
what's wrong with me...
i made a vow... i'll keep to hopefully
to concentrate on revision on days without canoeing
and on canoeing nights, play the guit till i sleep.
reduce expenditure and save up for...
i dunno. my merc slk???
goodness... i ran out of wants which i haven't got
cos i've got them all
and i don't need anything anymore
i'm just... satisfied now (:


i'm eager and also not eager to attend school
and i'm surprised i manage to fit into my uniform
i thought i'd require alternation
yeah... i swear! there won't be a belly when nationals come
...
(: