SpAsTiCaTeD HoMo-SaPiEnS

2008-11-09T18:18:00.002+08:00

i might skip the olympus altogether cos of it's really small sensor size...

i wish i wish for a thousand bucks (x

then i can stop saving up...

and get myself a polaroid

a real polaroid and stop photoshopping fake ones...

teadious!

2008-11-08T22:24:00.005+08:00

I ranked my dslr choices!!!

nikon d90

olympus E-30

canon 450d

sony alpha350

nikon d60

2008-11-02T16:47:00.001+08:00

last week my vehicle's windscreen gave way when i applied break... i'm serious... i had to fill a 1201... nicely done jeremy!

2008-10-27T17:37:00.005+08:00

Ah fuck... void the previous post. I should just revive this ancient orange blog... in about 20minutes, i need to freakin' serve ns... some festival of light... *pffffft*

now i need to wait another week just to blog again. damn army. they should freakin' consider wifi and wireless internet...

that'll make me happy!

2008-09-13T19:48:00.000+08:00

all future posts as of this day will be made on

www.flickr.com/photos/pecs

2007-11-21T21:23:00.000+08:00

2007-11-18T13:11:00.001+08:00

that's more like it

2007-11-18T12:19:00.000+08:00

okay now i WANT this
more affordable
heehee....

2007-11-18T00:58:00.000+08:00

this is like the WRONGEST time to get
GUITAR ADDICTED!!!

2007-11-17T17:59:00.000+08:00

I WANT THIS
martin and co est 1833 GUITARRRRRRRRRRRRR
i need USD1200+++
pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee (=

yummy!

2007-11-16T00:29:00.000+08:00

...nothing beats
making
my own sounds
on the guitar...

change the strings
it's a new sound altogether

2007-11-14T21:43:00.000+08:00

disturbing

2007-11-13T23:00:00.000+08:00

Singapore's internet is disturbingly slower than the internet in Malaysia

2007-11-13T17:49:00.000+08:00

you're way to far fetched for me at this point

and you... well you seem likely but you don't get many unnatural deaths
good thing you don't need economics

perhaps

no thank you (=

2007-11-13T01:13:00.000+08:00

I can't sleep...

some thing's keeping me from enjoying my daily retirement

It's like something i haven't done today...

I'm sure i covered at least 90% of my chemistry syllabus
for tomorrow's exam

yeah i did and i still can't sleep...

sigh...

i like macdonalds (=

i need a happy meal

but their free toys suck right now...

go sleep jeremy!

2007-11-10T12:38:00.000+08:00

oh finally, my first ever accident in almost two years of driving..haha..cracked my tuition teacher's flowerbed this morning while parking the car.nifty scratch to the left front sport rim of the car and two large cracks to the concrete flower bed.hahaha..something's wrong with me today.i even knocked over someone's garbage bin..i'm getting old already..and i beat the traffic light yesterday..A levels take so long to end..i don't know what to study now!

2007-11-08T13:00:00.001+08:00

i hate economics... i really do...

2007-11-08T11:24:00.000+08:00

argh... i forced myself to stay up till 0430hrs this morning just to watch scrubs season one on youtube and when i woke up again this morning, all the entire episodes were removed by the user!!!i was barely even halfway through the season(double frick)... scrubs was suppose to help me through my exam season and they removed it... sighh... darn IP regulations... now i have to find something else to watch on youtube or get a new tv series in Malaysian or i might just kill myself... yeah God's trying to say i should start studying now...

anyway, my room's in a total mess now. i had a study table - now filled with notes and a laptop that already takes up more than half the space leaving and empty 10 by 10 cm area for my little high tech mouse, there once were two chairs - now covered with my big big poser duffle bag and stacked with more notes, a really dandy stack up table - now filled to it's every inch with notes... oh yah, and not to forget the bed i used to have too! it's currently a semi storage area for more of my notes and TYSes. i can't wait to get rid of them...(=

ooh my neighbours are playing mahjong...

good afternoon!!!

2007-11-07T12:34:00.000+08:00

right smack in the middle of my A levels now and five more papers to go. good thing about this is that there's a one week break for BCME students and, as you can see, me has already wasted it revamping my blog...next week's chem, econs, chem, bio, bio followed by freedom (= although i haven't planned out my itinerary for the next one and a half months since the army is calling me in early...anyway, this freedom includes getting a new mid-size Macpac bag for China, self photography, random excursions to Singapore, loads of golf (suddenly i could hit really well), chauffering parents and friends who will be on parent-less holiday with me to GENTINGS (i'm sure they'll let us(= ) and perhaps recycling my A level notes since i'll never be needing them ever again...for the time being at least...

there, i've planned out my holiday...

happy deepavali my fello indian friends...and those partial indians

2007-11-02T22:35:00.000+08:00

hello! right now i'm in the midst of my Alevel examinations... i'm so bored of studying... General Paper is over so now i can let my english rot in hell (= oh and math paper too... heh... *daydreams*... for the many many people who are trying to get in touch with me within this "busy" period of mine, i'm SORRIE... i keep telling myself "i'll reply later i'll say hi later" which i eventually ignore over time... yeah... okay... see studying's causing my brain to function below capacity... studying's bad... stop studying... yup... stop

2007-11-01T22:38:00.000+08:00

I picture you in the sun wondering what went wrong
And falling down on your knees asking for sympathy
And being caught in between all you wish for and all you seen
And trying to find anything you can feel that you can believe in

May God's love be with you
Always
May God's love be with you

I know i would apologize if i could see your eyes
'Cause when you showed me myself i became someone else
But i was caught in between all you wish for and all you need
I picture you fast asleep
A nightmare comes
You can't keep awake

May God's love be with you
Always
May God's love be with you

'Cause if i find
If i find my own way
How much will i find
If i find
If i find my own way
How much will i find
You

I don't know anymore
What it's for
I'm not even sure
If there is anyone who is in the sun
Will you help me to understand
'Cause i been caught in between all I wish for and all I need
Maybe you're not even sure what it's for
Any more than me

May God's love be with you
Always
May God's love be with you

2007-07-11T09:32:00.000+08:00

2007-07-10T21:44:00.000+08:00

i welcome myself back into the blogger world. i haven't updated since may, as you may have noticed.

i'm in the middle of my canoeing nationals now and the first day of it has been somewhat promising. rowing T2 with my partner, we managed a place in the semi-finals. we have the step up our competition tomorrow... today was such an enlightening day for me and probably many others. it spoke to me and moved my heart tremendously. when i started off in acjc canoe, training felt like a drag. i didn't know why trainings had to be so tough, so long and very much meaningless. why we had to train almost everyday, i had no idea cos at that point in time, there was nothing in mind i had or wanted to row for. every stroke i pulled and every lap i successfully completed only felt like a step towards completing training for the day. my vision and hopes for canoeing were non-existent. i felt like a hardcore amateur...

everything changed when i had someone to fight it with. and that is when my story started... now i realise that there's much to fight for when you're out there rowing either during training or at competitions. and in everyone i find a reason and a cause to row for. i must thank my coaches for inspiring us to give it our all as we rowed our final few sessions at mac..

well, there's so much i can say about my last few days of canoeing... but i don't know where to begin... i'm filled with so much mixed feelings now...

anyway, all i can say is... i have so many things to row for now!

i need to rest... tomorrow's another big day (=

goodnight people!

2007-03-18T23:09:00.001+08:00

damn...why do you make me cry?

2007-03-18T22:35:00.001+08:00

take that - "Like I Never Loved You At All"

Where, where are the stars?
The one that we used to call ours
Can't imagine it now
We used to laugh till we fell down.

The secrets we had, are now in the past
From something to nothing, tell me.

How did we lose our way?
It's hard to remember
All that we shared
Now we both have separate lives
From lovers to strangers, now alone
There's no one catching my fall
No one to hear my call
It's like I never loved you at all.

Now you're so far away
And I see our star is fading
One too many times
Guess it just got tired of waiting around.

The nights that we thought, if these walls could talk
From something to nothing, tell me.

So now does he give you love
Is it only me now that's thinking of, what we had and what we were
Did you ever care, baby was I ever there?

2007-03-18T22:22:00.001+08:00

take that - Hold On

We've been many times before
Leaving rooms and slamming doors
We're climbing up the bedroom walls
Sometimes we make it so frustrating
I touch your mouth, I touch your lips
The answers are our fingertips
Not giving up or giving in
Why are we so complicated?

Oh tell me what to say, tell me
To make it all ok

Chorus:
I don't wanna see you hurting
Just hold on
Just hold on to me
I don't wanna see you crying
So hold on
So hold on to me

I'm tryin' to think of what to do
To really make it up to you
So many truths, too many lies
Making love can be so crazy
I find myself back here again
Asking you to let me in
You know it's time, we need to change
How can we live with all these maybes?

There are no words that say, no words
To make it go away

Chorus

'Cause baby it's alright
I'm staying here tonight
So hold on

Just tell me what to say
To let you know

I'll always stay

2007-03-18T22:08:00.000+08:00

take that - back for good

I guess now it's time for me to give up
I feel it's time
Got a picture of you beside me
Got you're lipstick mark still on your coffee cup
Got a fist of pure emotion
Got a head of shattered dreams
Gotta leave it, gotta leave it all behind now

Whatever I said, whatever I did I didn't mean it
I just want you back for good
Whenever I'm wrong just tell me the song and I'll sing it
You'll be right and understood

Unaware but underlined I figured out this story
It wasn't good
But in the corner of my mind I celebrated glory
But that was not to be
In the twist of separation you excelled at being free
Can't you find a little room inside for me

Whatever I said, whatever I did I didn't mean it
I just want you back for good
Whenever I'm wrong just tell me the song and I'll sing it
You'll be right and understood

And we'll be together, this time is forever
We'll be fighting and forever we will be
So complete in our love
We will never be uncovered again

Whatever I said, whatever I did I didn't mean it
I just want you back for good
Whenever I'm wrong just tell me the song and I'll sing it
You'll be right and understood

2007-03-04T23:42:00.000+08:00

my LOVEY DOVEY!!
...TRI...
*muacks*

[but still, nothing will ever replace you...my true love (:]

2007-02-24T22:42:00.000+08:00

i really hope my dad gets that golden retriever
(:

2007-02-23T23:31:00.000+08:00

BUSTY jeremy

just got back home from a full day's activity
school couldn't be more B*R*NG...

senior junior interaction (SJI) was really fun
really felt the bond between the juniors and SOME seniors
especially those whom i've only made eye contact with
gone are the days of "OH HI... BYE BYE!"
now it's the exchange of sweet juicy gossip
that has been dying to spread for a long time already

all i can say now is... i really like my juniors (:

thanks guys!

2007-02-20T00:10:00.000+08:00

last night

oh no...
you've found my weakness
it's you

[just so you know
this feeling is taking control of me
and i can't help it...]

2007-02-18T02:16:00.000+08:00

chinese new year

so it's finally here
the year of the pig
always been looking forward to this particular festive day
well besides the angpaos
sweet mand oranges, pineapple tarts, and house guests are just some on the major draw factors for me
spring cleaning and babysitting little children coming in last
thank goodness i reformatted my computer
(not on purpose... really! *evil grins*)
now the little kiddies have nothing to play
so my CoOl AsS room will be out of bound for them(:
unless they wanna play guitar...
which is a zero in a billion chances
... even if they do i'll be stashing away my COOL guitar
ha... "hello kids! go play with your food(:"

singaporeans, you guys are missing out on the spirit of CNY
especially when the clock strikes 12
if you read last year's post i said it felt like a war zone.
this year it's like hearing Hiroshima's atomic bomb go off
seriously a 360surround sound of fireworks
and when everything ends you see clouds of smoke filling the entire sky
and even enter your room through the windows
it's just breath taking...
and i mean literally
so what do you guys have?
channel 5 wishing you "A HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!"
haha...

[ guess it's too late now... but i'm having such a good time, i'm having a ball (: ]

2007-02-14T20:54:00.000+08:00

valentine's day

been a long time since i've spent this day alone
not that it makes me absolutely suicidal
today made me realise something more important
more important than a one-to-one fondness
look around you and you'll know what i mean
take some time and ponder...
thoughts away from that special or seemingly special person
and reevaluate the meaning of LOVE
what about your classmates that make school a more worth while chore
what about your best friends that make "hanging out" a look forward to
what about your relatives whom we meet on occasions
what about your siblings who come in handy in times cheerlessness
what about your parents who embraces you in theirs invisible arms even without you knowing
what about our lord god who LOVED us first...
have you told everyone who have made an impact in your life the 3 special words?
(:

AC is really valentine happening
decorations everywhere and flowers from cauliflowers to crimson roses
i dare say everyone loves everyone
except for me and the people i hate...
got a sunflower from Pravin and Aman via that inter JC thingamajig
was absolutely surprised cos i figured i'd be leaving school empty handed
again, not that i'd turn suicidal
and by mid day my shoe bag had been filled with sweets, milk chocolate and everything nice
and today
i got my first ever ROSE from a girl i HARDLY KNEW in person(:
mg girl
but it was SJI la
juniors were forces to do it...
they were probably preassigned
but that's okay...
(thanks jean... not like you'd read my blog... but i was stunned it was you... it's a pretty flower indeed!!! (: )
so i walked around school with two stems in my bag
like it would wither and eventually evolve into notes
so here they sit in my room...
one in a pepsi bottle and another in my canoeing FILA bottle
under a florescent lamp of mine

[but i gave my heart away a long time ago with a vow that of unending LOVE...]

2007-02-06T20:50:00.000+08:00

it's a Tuesday

you know how it feels to wake up
and then wanting to skip whatever going on for the day and just
continue sleeeeping...
today was one of those days for me
even a BOTTLE of coffee couldn't pry my eyes open
absolutely exhausted
i had to hibernate... no choice
tuesday is my longest day
what could be more worse than ending the day with
Physical Education and Canoeing training
one after the other
oh no i'm not complaining
i'm just enlightening everyone on how i spend my days
which technically makes it seem like less of a complaint

fine.... i'm complaining...

Bio test on respiration and photosynthesis was doable
though i only expect half my answers to carry ticks...
and the rest anything else other than ticks...
so how does cyanide affect respiration people?
i don't remember that being in any of my notes
it'll be lot easier learning through experience
maybe then i'd be able to answer that mind boggling question
anyway,
hope for my day only came when the last question i actually successfully answered
was my name...

i might sleep early.

cheers!

2007-02-04T20:57:00.000+08:00

but you see forever now
i'll be waiting for you......

2007-02-04T08:35:00.000+08:00

all to myself

rocks having my MALAYSIAN house all to myself
it feels like i'm living on my own
but only i don't have to pay the bills
soon i'll be driving myself to church
where i will dominate the PA systems
which grants me the ability to "chipmunk" the voice of my pastor
[entertainment +1]
hahaha...

woke up with the house alarm this morning
i thought it was still DARK night
when i realised the blanket was over my face
so somebody wasn't trying to play a fool
just the wind triggering the doors i reckon
but anyway i scouted around the house with my Kbar at hand
ready to castrate

"eu chakap enggris macham shiok ah"
(the way you speak english is sooooo .... erm... "shiok")?
that's what the taxi driver told me yesterday
he was impressed at how english flowed out from my mouth
didn't know how to respond cos my bahasa sucks to the max
malaysia is the only country you can make do without english

2007-02-02T05:11:00.000+08:00

5 o'clock in the morning now and everyone's asleep
was only suppose to nap the night before
but somehow i manage to convince myself to sleep through the night
guess i was really shagged cos of the "lack of sleep" (which i catch up on during lectures)
and training
gymed yesterday (:
not that it was fun... but i gave my all
then a rugby match after that where acjc couldn't beat ntu
depressing...

for some strange reason it's been rather cold in college these few days
now i have to bring a jacket/hoodie wherever i go
which makes my bag rather bulky and big...
you see, i see myself attending college with as little load as possible

speaking of it, i'm eyeing sac bags which are rather nice to sling on
but then i reconsidered
don't think they'll look good on me unless i'm skinny and unbuff
i'm gonna be faithful to deuter
these days it's really hard to find deuters
alot of bag shops don't sell them anymore ):
but i know a place that does... which i frequent every week
hahahaha... i'm looking for a 30 to 40 liter bag
nice and spaciousssssssssssssssss

it's friday, the week passes really fast
soon term exams will be here... sigh

kk, better get back to my comfort zone
for just a few more minutes of rest(:

2007-01-23T23:20:00.000+08:00

buff king
mister pecs
pecs
booby man
jermey
oi
eh

aka jeremy

2007-01-17T00:05:00.000+08:00

bleah

so this is what it's like to be j2
all the work i have to get through at the end of everyday
i absolutely think prison break season one
which i just bought recently
is gonna take up my entire term
i'm done with episode 1 to 4
just now only actually
but then again,
i might be able to complete it before next week
really addictive show

haven't been learning new songs on the guit
it's random play now... gotta catch up on "revision"
and little lessons for people who desperately wanna learn "you and me"
ran out of ideas of what song would sound good on my guits
i can't wait till Saturday
guitar lessons in church...
i'll have to lug my acoustic in and out of this country
bring it for saturday trainings if i have to
then head straight back home (malaysia)
oh how i wish the week would fly by

coming friday is besties night out!!!
haven't seen them since last year.
haahaa

2007-01-09T19:16:00.000+08:00

and all the roads we have to walk are winding
and all the lights that lead us there are blinding
there are many things that i would like to say to you
but i don't know howwww?

cause maybe
you're gonna be the one that saves me?
and afterall
you're my wonderwall

(:

2007-01-09T18:24:00.000+08:00

... okay i don't think i can continue with FIVE... can't think of any
heck

heh

SWIM PE is this thursday... should be "fun"
i reckon...
see my classmates in their TIGHT sexy triangles *drools*

2007-01-05T18:44:00.000+08:00

so what has one year in acjc done to me

it's changed me quite alot actually.
compared to my "previous" self a few years back.
now as i watch the newbbies roll around
in the wet and muddy field,
brave the water filled plastic bags and
cheer their hearts out at the bleachers...
i remind myself of how i once was

here's what i've done to myself.
in just one year!

ONE!
remember me in my mushroom-cut nerdy hairdo

an eight bucks cut in RAJA BARBER
someplace in malaysia
i honestly thought my hairdo is as cool as it can get.
well, in marsiling at least...
here it's a whole new fashion...
slope cut is way out of fashion now!

it's now about hairdos that comes close to challenging school regulations

TWO!
just about 2 months back,
i began to crave learning the guitar
almost everyone plays an instrument.
if it's not the piano, it's the guitar.
i gave up on piano in secondary school
didn't like getting used to a new teacher
who demanded more theory books
I've always wanted to PLAY an instrument
skip the theory bit
and jump straight into Mozart or
that whatchamacallit guy with the white mask
(scroll down to previous post to see the guits)
i mean yeah it's good to know treble clefs and
scribble musical notes and all
but i like learning through patterns
like what guitar tabs are for.
cheat codes(:
now i'm playing my babies everyday
they keep me company when i'm lonely
at home...

THREE!
more muscle mass... probably
i managed 20 pull ups sometime back
one year to train up for NS
nuff said

FOUr!
i swear my handwriting is getting neater!
i like it sometimes.
starting to look like a girls'

FIVE!
i'm tired... i'll continue with 5 some other time (:

2007-01-02T22:38:00.000+08:00

look at me.
my hair is too long for school.

2007-01-02T13:47:00.000+08:00

it's the last day before school term starts
J2 already... one year went by so quickly
while everyone i'm talking to now rush through their undone assignmants
here i am searching for guitar tabs...
and strumming acoustic
what's wrong with me...
i made a vow... i'll keep to hopefully
to concentrate on revision on days without canoeing
and on canoeing nights, play the guit till i sleep.
reduce expenditure and save up for...
i dunno. my merc slk???
goodness... i ran out of wants which i haven't got
cos i've got them all
and i don't need anything anymore
i'm just... satisfied now (:

i'm eager and also not eager to attend school
and i'm surprised i manage to fit into my uniform
i thought i'd require alternation
yeah... i swear! there won't be a belly when nationals come
...
(:

2006-12-28T11:28:00.000+08:00

hello!!! these are my babies
one is called classical and the other
called acoustic...
well, these are their names for now
till i have time to think of naming them...
classical has been lying around in my room
for a decade now...
with broken strings, rusty screws and dusty insides,
i finally decided to salvage it
and it still sounds as good...
acoustic is a recent addition
a Christmas present (:
and it's killing my fingers but i'll get used to it

2006-12-24T00:50:00.000+08:00

singapore is safe no more

going back home alone now is really freaky
especially after 12am ):
some weird A** stalker sat beside me in the 147 bus
he was large build looks chinese
wearing jeans with bright yellow polo
for some reason i felt him staring down my neck
that's not the end!!!
i was busy minding my own business
busy listening to my mp3 in fact
then all seats around me were empty
he could have moved off to another empty seat
BUT NOOOO...
2 buff guys had to squeeze shoulder to shoulder
i could tell he was slightly off the seat
next thing i know!!! he pulls out his phone
types some random freaky question
and angles it to face me AND
stares at me... like he could eat me
i could feel his eyes molesting my body
AND I SWEAR I SAW A QUESTION MARK ON HIS FREAKY RAZOR V3
but i didn't have a good look at it
i was busy DRY-strumming guitar rhythms

oh goodness... did my strumming look that suggestive...
sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet!!! yuckkkkkkkkk!!!!!!

LIKE I DIDN'T NOTICE BUFF CHINA DUDE!!
I WAS FREAKED OUT

but i was cool... calm... absorbed at the scenery
and my mp3 player
my default look was on
and everyone know my default wears the words
"**** you" on my forehead (:
like i could EAT you up anytime...
scary to know he likes just 2 bus stops away!
yeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

GOODNESS! i have a strong feeling he's GAY!!!
and ugly one too...

?why are all the cute ones skinny?
?and the buff ones fugly?
?sigh?

2006-12-18T13:14:00.000+08:00

morning training was survivable
the usual gymming then runs that were like
400m.rest.600m.rest.800m.rest.1000m.rest
followed by 100 variation pushups
my arms were dying... literally...
i could sense muscle death in my arms
after training training was simply
diving around in the pool...
some people just cannot make it =)

so many people in school today
kinda regret not being an ogl
they looked like they were having fun
or so i think they were
should have sacrificed my 2 plates of chicken rice
with veggie
for that ogl form... darnnit

i wanna go back to my life in malaysia
too much time spent across the causeway
good and bad

nuff said!

2006-12-18T00:28:00.000+08:00

patience - take that

just have a little patience
still hurting from a love i lost
i'm feeling your frustration
maybe any minute the pain will stop
just hold...me close...inside...your arms...tonight
don't be too hard on...my emotions

cos iiiiiii
need tiiiiiiimeeeeeeeee
my heart is numb has no feeling
so while i'm still healing
just tryyyyyyyyyy
and have a little patience

i really wanna start over again
i know you wanna be my salvation
the one i can always depend
i'll try...to be strong...believe me...i'm trying...to move on
it's complicated but understand me

cos iiiiiiiiii
need tiiiiiiiiiimeeeeeeee
my heart is numb has no feeling
so while i'm still healing
just tryyyyyyyyyy
and have a little patience, yeah
have a little patience, yeah

cos the scar...from so deep...it's been hard...
but i have to believe
have a little patience
have a little patience

cos iiiiiii
i just need tiiiiiiiiimeeeeeee
my heart is numb has no feeling
so while i'm still healing
just tryyyyyyyy
and have a little patience
have a little patience

my heart is numb has no feeling
so while i'm still healing
just tryyyyyyyy
and have a little patience

(the music video is rubbish... but i like the words =) )

2006-12-13T18:06:00.000+08:00

and you left us peacefully
right beside the Christmas tree
my joy my love my heart
empty it seems...

so who will greet me when no one's home?

it'll still be you (:

2006-12-13T01:58:00.000+08:00

i'm having a bad case of insomnia...
seriously cannot sleep after 12
this is bad! my eyes are exhausted
fingers half mutilated cos of guit
but my mind just can't seem to shut off
and i have training tomorrow morning

what could be worse?

wth is wrong with dictionary.com!!!

i'm hallucinating... someone strangle me now.
quick!

2006-12-12T14:42:00.000+08:00

oh no... i'm addicted to the guitar! =()()()()()))(((()()(

2006-12-04T22:05:00.000+08:00

I can see the pain

i still see your face in my dreams
it hurts and it doesn't help at all
i still want you in my life as crazy as that seems
i still want you to catch me when i fall

i still remember the first time we met
there was something so different about you
your friendship was something i wanted to get
that smile when you said hi to me was so new

out of no where you called me on the phone
i wanted to sit there and talk to you forever
you were so new, so crazy and unknown
i just knew our friendship would never sever

two years and we're barely holding it together
what happened to the way this all used to be
i never wanted you out of my like ever
i sat there for a long time pretending not to see

we decide to go out and make it all all right
it didn't work of course we knew it couldn't
we couldn't even really stand each others sight
it shouldn't end this way but it did and i shouldn't

i miss you and everything you were to me
ten years from now we will look back on it all
we will be older and finally be able to see
that love will stand the test of time and never fall

-by nikki-

2006-12-02T11:45:00.000+08:00

i'm back from sydney! aussieland. arrived in singapore at 0340 hours and feeling very extremely jet lagged. though it's only a 3 hour difference. very reluctant i was to board the airplane but i didn't wanna waste my dad's money by utterly refusing to step on board my return flight (i mean, my visa doesn't expire for another 3 months!) and the fact that i will be dragged on board by security on a handicap buggy with handcuffs after throwing a tantrum and lying on the ground of the customs rebellious to the fact that i live in a tropical country and drawing a huge audience. indeed!

i'm suprised singapore's security isn't as strick as aussieland's. well it appears to be because the australians will strip search you if they have to. i mean, i had to remove my BELT and run it through the scanner as i walk through the metal detectors with my bumms half way down my arse.

anyway, taxi rides are madness now. changi to bouna vista cost me a bomb. 30.45 sgd. the almost equivelant of the price of my bums. if trade was still in play i would have given it to him with a heart felt smile on my face and stroll back home in a pair of undies.

GO TASMANIA PEOPLE! FOR YOUR HONEY MOON AND DO WHAT THE BACKPACKERS DO! noo not love BUT... BUDGET LIVING AND SPEND THE EXCESS IN PADDY'S IN SYDNEY! WHERE returning BOOMERANGS GO FOR THE PRICE OF MY SOCKS! AND ORIGINAL ABORIGINAL ART ARE MACHINE PRINTED IN CHINA! AND FOR THE PRICE OF MY TAXI FARE! like the honkies would say, THHIRRTY DOULLERS AND FOOORTY FIE CENN...=))) (did i mention sydney has too many asians?)

2006-11-30T19:43:00.000+08:00

23 hours more in australia before jeremy lim jit wang leave for the mini island of singapore. jeremy doesn't feel like leaving at all ... oh no he doesn't!.. but at the same time he doesn't feel like staying in sydney for too long because of the messy lifestyle it's made of. he thinks it's really a busy city... there you have it they sydney opra house taken from a cruise along the circular quay. it looks nice doesn't it =) yeah jeremy sure thinks so...

you'd probably think jeremy did this using photoshop. think again! =)

anyway, dinner i had today was somewhat closer to home. singaporean laksa and chicken rice. dimething entirely different from the fish and chips, gelato ice cream and chocolates i've been having for the past 8 days in australia. did i mention? sydney is filled with asians (koreans, chinese and lots of jappies) it's like yellow skins overload here. refugee domonation i reckon...the river and sea sides are seagull filled too. it's cute how they function especially when you feed just one of them. it's like an ego thing when you feed a chip to A bird. it starts chasing all of the other birds away like it's taken ownership over you and your meal. it's like protection fee. here's my new found friend/bouncer in wineglass bay!(accessible only by a 5km hike at coles bay...get a tassie map)

pretty bird aye =)
and altogether i had... erm... 18 of these! i'm quite sick of oysters now.

hmmm... i'll be back in singapore! soon =) tah

2006-11-29T09:57:00.000+08:00

BYE BYE tassie! you were fun and difficult to let go but i have to return to my life now =) Hobart - one of the main cities in tassie with lots of sea food and also where the cadbury chocolate factory is located!!! i took in choco like a chained smoker and the one i really enjoyed the most is the frog "freddo" that comes in many assorted flavour. you should try the turkish delight one.... hmmmmmm...

yeap. aussie has a history of convict labour and we were previlaged enough to go experience what they went through during the 19th century. obviously i was rather happy about being in chains =) bondaged aye. tassie is filled with historical sites almost all of which were about convicts and more convicts. heh.
oh yeah, that's me trying to brave the 100km/h winds at 20 degrees with icy-cold sea water along the east coast as we travel north. hehe. tassie beaches are niceeeeeeeee!!!unique. something you don't see in singapore or malaysia.
me milking a letter box cow =). there's another one of me trying to hit on it ah-beng style!

2006-11-20T20:59:00.000+08:00

canberra's a nice place to study in. for me i think cos they have a lake and a canoe shed =) but sydney uni looks good too. Hogward's building and age old creeps. [oh and right now, i'd say canberra's best selling point is the gelatissmo in canberra centre! good ice cream and a REALLY CUTE asian waitress =B]

That's darling habour for you everyone! the place, i think, where finding nemo was featured. seriously, the aussies are rich with flashy yatchs. something you won't find in singapore or malaysia =) i have plans of making it rich young and then maybe migrating to sydney with all of my wealth. Btw, sydney chinatown's dim sum is rubbish. chicken legs taste like erasers and they are there to rip you off but later i satisfied myself by having really good dinner. korean food which is soul gardenish. sweet sweet heaven =)

right, so there we have it. a picture of sydney in a non-peak hour. it's more alive that canberra i say and i was suprised to finally see one of those trams with that thingamajig connected to the it from the top. coolies =)

sydney opra house. i'll just post photos cos my credit is running out =)

sydney uni!!! that's meeee and... it really looks like hogwarts right?

2006-11-17T22:00:00.000+08:00

Canberra is dry. streets are so quiet at night and chinese food here have too much flour in their wanton soup. woke up really late this morning cos of the late night we had with friends and lunch at the centre where i had spag carbonara. i was close to emptying the bottle of sprinkle cheese into my plate but i thought of spending my holidays without farting very often (something cheese would tend to cause on me)

Yeah, i went to that little circle last night right after shoppint for a pair of bums for myself. breath taking sight of canberra in the night with lights and all. we even manage to see a fire in the suburbs. if you look closely you can see little ducks waddling about the lake =) i could have made duck rice for dinner!

say HI to black swan. black swan is standing on one leg! he/she has calfs more defined as mine! =) i'm embressed.

sorry people, not many pictures this time round. i have some but they don't include me. enjoy!

taken by the lake.

night view from the mountains overlooking canberra

and this one =) i really like!

2006-11-16T12:37:00.000+08:00

taking off on an aeroplane always sends adrenaline through my brain. first, you see the plane line up along the runway then you hear the engines ROAR like "RAWWWWWWWWWWR!!!" then seconds later you feel the Gforce hitting you in your chest and before you know it, you're up in the air probably closer to God =) but hey, seven hours and ten minutes on a middle east plane with lebenonese passengers staring at me like i'm a hesbolla rebel and watching movies which repeated itself four times like "superman", "my super ex-girlfirend", "meet the parents" in arabic subtitles couldn't be that bad. i didn't expect my flight to have little LCD screens on the headboard infront of me but it was cool. It was a pleasent flight really. Oh and the washroom seats were absolutely freezing. my butt almost froze when i used it 14 times. that's like twice an hour =) that certainly makes the record for "the maximum number of times jeremy has used an airplane toilet from singapore to sydney". maybe i should attepmt to set a higher one on the return flight. Oh and one more thing, the plane flew at 37000 feet at the speed of 635 mph ground speed with an outside temperature of -59 degrees and i sware i saw the engine freeze up. there was frost on the window too =)

The aussie customs were kind enough to check my bag when i reached sydney international. for some reason they feared i came over for employment at the age of eighteen until i told them how much i was carrying with me.

i was close to kissing the floor of australia. my ever first time here and adding to the excitement, i was travelling alone. Somemore, I WITNESSED MINI HAIL YESTERDAY!!! LITTLE DROPLETS OF ICE FALLING FROM THE SKY! LIKE HOW COOL RIGHT! HAHAHA OMG. AND IT'S SUPPOSE TO BE SUMMER!

2006-11-14T09:32:00.000+08:00

i'm at changi airport now. they delayed my flight by 30 minutes for some weirdo reason. haha. hey, this international duty free goods are coolies. 2 huge bottles of absolute vodka for 38.00 sgd. goodness right??? lol... okay i better go get my ass seated at the waiting room. i got a window seat =) how cool right? I'M LEAVING ON A JET PLANE!!! i forsee myself using the washroom 5424356349562 times during my flight. i think i overtook my laxative (however you spell it) dosage yesterday morning. it's now being carried forward to today. hahaha. alrighty then, i'll blog more when i reach aussie =) coolies! OUT!

2006-11-09T22:22:00.000+08:00

waiting for you - west grand boulevard

I knew you for just a while before you left
you were young and full of happiness
i wish i could hear you laugh
and i wonder where you're hanging out
now that you're somewhere else
someplace sweeter
someplace better
someplace far away from us

when you're gone
but you see forever now,
i am waiting for you
(x2)

everything seem different now
bittersweet and funny how
things have turn out unexpectedly
and you know its how i'm counting down
all the days and nights from now
until the day i see you eventually

when you're gone
but you see forever now,
i am waiting for you
(x5)

la lala la lalala laaaaa.....

2006-11-08T14:08:00.000+08:00

project work is finally over! for me, it's neither a good or bad thing. maybe it's good cos i wouldn't have to go through the ardous task of doing research and enguaging in written work time after time as i think to myself "don't i have better things to do?". AND then again it's BAD cos I only started appreciating PW during the later stages for some weirdo reason. I'll miss all the GAYING around with jingyi, the home intrusions for PW meetings (esp puddles encounter), the frequent rubbish talk, the "try hard" cooking/baking of the watchamacallit marshmallow-inbetween-biscuits (which turned out rather alright), the random whinings of JY and I, not to forget the GUITAR "lessons" etc etc... i could go on and on. hmmmm, the memories. it's like i have to much time to myself now and i don't know how to spend it (besides studying). Right now i feel like going back to malaysia to lug over my guitar. JY already lent me two books on basic guitar skills for beginers and fingerpicking which i'll leave one side first until i've mastered the basics. damn, i should have picked it up when i was younger. now i'm flooded with interest and desperate to learn. maybe my sis can teach me a few skils when i go to aussie =) that'll be really cool. i mean i have a passable voice and i don't wanna stick to humming/"singing" with radio aid. i wanna make my own sounds.

my next major itinerary would be my up comming aussie trip. so many things i need to do and i'm feeling lazy.

collect my bagpack from pravin (i don't even know what it's doing there in the first place... hahaha...)
pack my one weeks worth of clothes
pump up my mobile phone with cool pop music so my eight hour flight wouldn't be dreadful.
get camera stuff
etc etc

what could be worse right? i'm too tired to think now. i just returned from a session of oral nourishment at jacks place and i'm broke for the week.

ciao!

2006-11-06T22:56:00.000+08:00

I knew it. This day was waiting to happen. Today I'm spastically absentminded and locked out of the house. I bet my set of house keys are just innocently laying on the study table in my room. But that's the least of my interests right now. As I spend the next of my 2 hours here in my other relatives house, I plan to at least finish this post and move on to PWing my Oral Presentation script and maybe squeeze a little holiday scheduling till December ends.

Eventful day indeed, went ThUmBtAcK and UhU-gLuE hunting in the early morning but to no avail. I was already late for my PW meeting and was close to being drenched in my own source of metabolic liquid that simply oozes out from the sweat glands from my skin. So decided to purchase them later when most shops island wide would have began operation. My fashion theme for the day: GAY. So clad in a PINK ripcurl shirt and a butt-crack visible black short, I marched to Holland V bus stop where I waited for A DAY (sure felt like it) for a direct bus to cashew heights. For a while I freaked out and I mentally debated the possibility of me having boarded the wrong bus and soon grew tired of thinking and took a nap. Waking up, I found myself in familiar territory. Thirty minutes late for a PW meeting! Not bad aye! I'm improving but the meetings I tell you.

Ninety nine percent of our "meeting" was spent on everything else but our pw project. Half the time we were sampling home-made Japanese food (chawa-mushi needs a little less liquid but it works for me =B), washing the dishes, surfing HARD GAY youtubes, tampering with a cardboard box, engaging in strum/mumble-along sessions with lifehouse youtubes and online lyrics, talking rubbish and voodoo-ing a cardboard foot with golden fasteners and most of all, formulating plans of cancelling choir sectionals because the rain created a sleepy atmosphere for some people (singular).

Right after that I went town-ing for a "I'll watch you get a hair-cut" session and did window shopping as well. My eyes were on a female craving rampage and I'm obscenely glad I perused an education in Singapore. But that's besides the point. There are so many things I wanna do this holiday.

1. Go back home, revive the guitar sitting in my bedroom by giving it a buff and changing all the strings + pick up some basics skills so that I may (or at least I hope to) be reasonably versed with playing the guitar. [~$40.00 including "an idiot's guide to playing a guitar"]
2. Save up for an ipod nano (blue or lime-green) which I can hopefully get for MYSELF when CHRISTMAS arrives *SUPER BIG HINT* [~$240++ for a 500song one which is all I need =)]
3. Get a cool crumpler bag for myself to reward myself for a job well done by passing my promotional exams =B [~$150++ which can store my laptop…though I have 4 other bags which can currently do the same]
4. Get a 1 GB SD memory card for my camera before I leave for aussie (there's a 75 bucks one at far east... it's on promotion and I'm eyeing it) [$75.00 which is on promotion]
5. Probably make my abs slightly more obvious before next year?!?!?! [free but required motivation]
6. and finally, study =( [motivation may not be able to help..haha..]

2006-11-06T00:35:00.000+08:00

2006-11-03T23:44:00.000+08:00

What's up with most female adolescents with blogs these days. everyone of their entries are flooded with frequent mentions of hot guys, cute guys and prayers for God to grant them one of the two [or maybe even both of each].

2006-11-03T01:56:00.000+08:00

dear lord,

i can't wait to get out of acjc. please grant me a fast journey through my final year. grant me patience lord. help me ignore my feelings of heavyheartness. refresh my mind and bury the past. i surrender all these to you =)

2006-11-02T10:48:00.000+08:00

Holidays aren't exactly fun anymore. Right now everyone's mugging up for chinese while the some aren't exactly bothered probably cos they're complacent or confident or just playing around thinking they'd rather have fun first before going back home and enguage in some "try hard" chinese mugging which never really happens at the end of the day. Yeah, you go people! of the latter description. stop trying to be dyslexic! that's our trick, not yours.

To canoeing guys:
Yeah, i went out of my mind yesterday. Capped twice, it rained for thirty minutes, Bill making me regret planning my trip to aussie cos apparently i failed to approach him to talk about at and then demoralising me after that, took my time to run and never really wanted to train for the day cos i had better holiday activities to do elsewhere which i turned down. It was basically a screwed up day for me. i won't apologise for what i did. for those who hate me, i don't really care. i'll still be me. jeremy, pecs or whatever you call me! the boy who hates running =)

can't wait to get away from aisa! 13 more days and i'll be leaving on a jetplane.

2006-11-01T11:06:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling lazy this holiday. i think i'm having a fetish for sitting down infront of my computer and doing nothing all day. the past few days hasn't been very productive for me and i wish i could be back in malaysia driving around up and down the north south highway at 120mph. and i mean miles! that sort of speed will send adrenaline surging through my entire system. i imagine myself bringing daddy's car to it's limit and applying the emergency breaks then jerking the steering right making the car spin seven hundred and twenty degrees creating cool skid marks on the road. then driving as per normal after that as if nothing ever occured. then dad will wake up and go "nggghh... did you feel that! or am i having a headache"..."oh no dad it's just you *grins*"

wait, why am i even mentioning this when i'm telling people i drive well back home to win their trust so that when they come over i can scare the **** out of them behind the steering wheel. oh no i did it again!

i was woken up rather abruptly this morning. imagine me looking hot in a wet suit surfing along the gold coast with all the aussie bums strolling the beach and then the sound of your name calling like Zeuse who could send a bolt of lightning down to fry you and your surfboard. well something along those lines. that's when i woke up and found my uncle standing at the door calling out to me. i thought he needed to change a lightbulb or something. you know something that didn't really involve so much travelling so early in the morning. i mean 9:30am is rather early on a holiday. right? anyway, my uncle and i went on a field trip to one of our relative's house to collect (what i thought was SOME) notes. yeep, seven bags of notes which weighed a tonne (see mom, all the grocery bags i carry back from the supermart trained me up for today) and an adorable lecture theater chair which i have plans of using for my self-initiated timed assignment (if i even get myself to do. unlikely). it's really cool cos i've always wanted one since primary school. i'm spoilt, what more can i say *hops around in circles and drools spastically*. Now i have to sort them out so it does not take up my 'push-up' cum 'crunches' space.

it's gonna some exciting day today! i'll be heading down to singapore poly to apply for the isic international student card which i hope will be fast and then training down at mac.

till then, i'll be round =)

booby man

2006-10-29T00:55:00.000+08:00

So yes, the holidays are officially here.
Mummy and Daddy wants me to do the following:
1. Clean my room
2. Plan my revision timetable during the holidays (thing is they said plan! not carry out *evil grins*)
3. Not play DOTA during my free time
and...... i think there were more

So yes again, interesting how i spent my saturday
doing final touch ups on my Oral Presentation and fiddling with the powerpoint slides
after that i made it a point to figure out photoshopCS.
so far i've only learnt how to make colour pictures black and white
FaCiNaTiNg aye

nuff said. having a brain tumour

Raindrops keep falling on my head

2006-10-27T23:22:00.000+08:00

Heros keep pawning off my head
And just like the guy who used a DK and a rap'
just can't farm in peace
Those Heros keep pawnin' off my head, they keep pawnin'

So i just did all my farming one by one
And I said I didn't like the way I got things done
Running from the creeps
Those Heros keep pawnin' off my head, they keep pawnin'

But there's one thing i know
The noobs they sent to meet me won't defeat me
It won't be long till all the Heros come to greet me

Heros keep pawnin' off my head
But that only means my health will soon be turnin' red
Friends keep saying 'b'
But i pay attention to the gold i keep earning
Because I'm nuuuub
And that's worryin' me

[trumpets]

It won't be long till Heros come up to greet me

Heros keep pawnin' off my head
But that only means my health will soon be turning red
Friends keep saying 'b'
But i pay attention to the gold i keep earning
Because i'm nuuuuub
And that's worrying..... meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

coooool. a fire just broke out at the carpark nearby =)

2006-10-24T00:37:00.000+08:00

My neighbours had so MuCh FuNNNN!!!........dang.

2006-10-23T23:19:00.000+08:00

Once again, Jeremy went on a holiday. He drove all the way up to Desaru with FrIgGiN GOOD lunch inbetween and there he spent 2 days and 1 night sleeping by the beach trying his best to admire the malaysian version of bikini babes. sadly there were non good enough for him to set his eyes on. On the first evening, Jeremy and two other cousins crusied around in a buggy on the golf course just watching the MEN hit balls into the many holes available. Then they went for dinner at some ulu town 6789436528375km away from where we were staying and he drove all the way there and back after dinner. Jeremy heaves a sigh for the distance MEN travel for good beehoon, 2 differently prepared crayfishs, sotongs, gruper fish, lettuce which weren't enough to fill them. So then came second round. Back at the hotel, Jeremy had his first draft of Carlseberg which made him all HIGH and "GYGygUFTfgfTYFtydYguygfiUFtyF"ish and then he passed out on the bed.

Jeremy thought he'd be hung over in the morning but ironically, his mom was. So Jeremy wore his shoe, his dry-fit t-shirt and hot nike shorts and headed down to the beach. He attempted to perform warm ups before going on a 3.00000000000km run (which was later reduced to a jog) along the beach. He plugged in his left earpiece then his right and started off to the tune of hoobastank-the reason. Jeremy felt the adrenaline inside him as he ran along the area where the water mearly washes the sand and at the same time giving side looks to those who were strolling along the beach. Jeremy was on the lookout for certain kinds of people. OH YES HE WAS and YES HE DID (scrawny fella for a bf now isn't he...damn). The haze was usual but he didn't really care. All he wanted to do was to leave footprints in the sand so the waves may just wash it away making the sand all so smooth again. Damn it felt good after that, he thought.

Jeremy thinks lunch was rubbish btw. I could tell from his face when he stared at himself in the mirror. The same thing they've served probably since he was given birth to, or so he thinks. After that was a bow and arrow session and a drive with my cousin the the jetty where he remembers fishing with his daddy from 12am to 5am the last last time he came to desaru. He saw the high tide and figured what a waste it was not fishing. The next part of his story as rather interesting. After driving back to the resort, desperately tried ringin the bell for his mom to open the door, but to no avail. INSTEAD, he heard funny sounds coming from from within the NEIGHBOURS door. Though their television that was tuned louder than usual, he wasn't satisfied with a TV excuse and listened closely again, this time more intently. He was convinced after that that he heard moanings that stood out from a PCK-last-season-commercial and a MUST-SEE-TUESDAY ad. This time he seakily considered various possible activities that could be happening once he attempts to break open their door. He was later convinced that his neighbour is having lots of recreational bonding activities and left them to it. Besides, Jeremy had to find his mummy if he wanted to go back to his room.

THE END

John Mayer.......

2006-10-08T17:56:00.000+08:00

We got the afternoon

You got this room for two

One thing I've left to do

Discover me

Discovering you

One mile to every inch of

Your skin like porcelain

One pair of candy lips and

Your bubblegum tongue

And if you want love

We'll make it

Swimming a deep sea

Of blankets

Take all your big plans

And break 'em

This is bound to be a while

Your body Is a wonderland

Your body is a wonder

(I'll use my hands)

Your body Is a wonderland

Something 'bout the way your hair falls in your face

I love the shape you take when crawling towards the pillowcase

You tell me where to go and

Though I might leave to find it

I'll never let your head hit the bed

Without my hand behind it

You want love?

We'll make it

Swimming a deep seaOf blankets

Take all your big plans

And break 'em

This is bound to be a while

Your body Is a wonderland

Your body is a wonder

(I'll use my hands)

Your body Is a wonderland

Damn baby

You frustrate me

I know you're mine all mine all mine

But you look so good it hurts sometimes

Your body Is a wonderland

Your body is a wonder

(I'll use my hands)

Your body is a wonderland

Your body Is a wonderland

HAZEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

2006-10-07T00:05:00.000+08:00

OMG... tonight's haze is extravagantly parasitic. I'm begining to feel breathless everytime i'm out on the streets and it's beyond being paranoid that makes me feel this way. Visibility is round about 3 to 4 kilometers before everything else just appears white. IT'S THAT BAD PEOPLE! SO HELP BY NOT BURNING FIRE CRACKERS THIS MOONCAKE SEASON CANNN??!! THOSE PEOPLE DOWN AT WOODLANDS!!! AND I THOUGHT THEY WERE BANNED IN SINGAPORE!!! you could instead stick to finishing up all the over produced mooncakes and grow fat on them. damn the plantations which practice and support fire clearing. Took this on the way back from Aman's house after almost 2 hours of non-stop HALO2-ing. It was a nauseating game of gun fire, explosions, hit and runs and alien + robo + zombie bashing. Too bad there wasn't enought time to play Rainbow Six otherwise i would have taken a few snipe-shots with Aman's "i-already-know-where-the-bad-guy-is" tips and tricks... haha, i can just imagine "okay, open this door and it's the kitchen. there are 98274923874 bad guys and 1321232 of them are on the right of which 123213 are hiding in the drawers and the rest are squatting... the remaining will pretend they are shooting but they are not so JEREMY, you chuck the grenade and i'll frag them all with head shots! Then you join in and pick them all out one by one till your ammo runs out then we'll both kinfe the remaining. For the rest of the mission, we'll squat walk all the way to rescue! SOUNDS GREAT???".... I LOVE YOU AMAN SINGING KILLER!!! =DDD

PROMOS ARE OFFICIALLY overrrrrrrrrr... i'm already feeling the onset of post exam depression. so much free time and don't know how to spend it. studying will be the last thing on my wanna-do list this season not until the next set of exams come... i miss studying for some reason and i only wish i had more MORE and MOREEEE time to mug for the subjects i thought i could have done better. so many questions left blank and so many answers self-invented. I'm like this massive ORB of emptiness. i only hope for advancementable grades so i wouldn't have to experience/live through 2 fun-o-ramas, 2 orientations and 2 promotional examinations. Optimistically it'll be playing for one more year, rowing for an extra year and proudly being 2 years older than my classmates... =) coolnessssss

think math

2006-10-02T14:21:00.000+08:00

Medical update... Stage one of LGN syndrome: child wannabe after children's day.

what an adrenaline-filled morning=)...even my loudest alarm clock and ringtone couldn't wake me up. I bet even a bomb blast wouldn't make a difference. I woke up just 20 minutes before my math promo exam and i did the following:
- straddle my bolster to get out of bed (kinky)
- strip naked *wobble wobble* and pack last minute stuff at the same time
- put on uniform and still pack last minute stuff
- tuck in shirt nicely
- pull pants down just below butt. well not exactly. i need lipo first.heh.
- grab my stuff and dash for the door
- wearing my socks at the same time
- say "bye bye" to my uncle 3 times
- jog to the bus stop
- wave for a taxi though my school was merely 3 bus stops away
- walk nonchalantly to the sports complex (yeah, i took my math paper in the gym... i find the abs machine particularly condusive to study/do timed assessments... just kidding... it's the swimming pool where we take our exam. i want my tan back =(... kidding againn)
I still had 5 minutes to spare before the start of the paper which makes it my record time so far.

i love chinese periods

life thus far

2006-09-29T00:24:00.000+08:00

it's almost the end of the year and JC one is coming to an end. well almost. there are many things i would have changed if i had the ability to hop on a time machine and rewind time to trivial incidences and make those little fixes that would have made a very big difference in my life now. i would like to recreate my past like how i would whitewash my bedroom walls to cover up those freak vandalism marks of crayons and kiddy chops when i pretend to praise myself like my preschool teachers would. too bad we or in this instance, i only have one shot at life. There are so many songs on the radio which i sometimes sing to myself that would describe my obscene urge to turn back time. but it's not gonna happen. it's too superficial to want to reboot right now. i'm happy (i think) with where i am but maybe i crave for too much perfection.

it's gonna be my promos in a few hours and i know inside me i could have clocked more hours than the usual 5 i try my best to keep to while staying in late in school with canoeing friends talking about who has the loudest burp, which girl is "so MAN", the most preferred washroom to release last nights dinner ingredients, cute and hot girls, discussing how spastic we will be as canoeing seniors, how to kill our juniors during their first training and the list goes on. anyway, damn depression. it's too much sacrifice getting involved with the A levels but it somehow "promises" a future slightly above average and earning it is the way to go about reaping its "promise"...it's like having a needy wife who requires a demanding amount of TLC (Tremendous Load of Cramming). that's besides the point, the point is... i don't know what the point is. I often think of the other opportunities out there available to me since the day i recieved my results other than being clad in mass produced white and blue costumes everyday. i'm just here to let out my complaints. i am sentimental you know so you gotta understand... =( it's just one of those emodays i'm having. damn... see i'm feeling much better now letting out my thoughts rather than containing them inside me. how i wish i had a second jeremy lim to share such random thoughts with =) I NEED MEEEE....

TGIF

2006-09-08T09:12:00.000+08:00

FRIDAY MORNING
AAHAHHHHHH... it's such a daydream sitting on the royal throne releasing UNdigestables. Anyway, i'm having sausages for breakfast and they're boiling as i speak. 4 cheese stuffed and 2 purely meat. See people, i told you i didn't need whatever protien powders. The real thang is right about a billion timesXXXX better that what comes off the shelf... OMG! try squeezing a cheese sausage! it oozes out from the membrane lining like you squeese pores on your nose! GrOsSSSsssSSS (i like =D).

ADDICTIVES
Oh and guess what, the last 5 days have been a movie episode marathon for me. The entire season 2 of Dr HOUSE and season 4 of CSI:miami totals to about 50FIFTY50 episodes altogether. Yeah, do the math. That's how crazzzeeee i've been aside from still being able to study while watching (OMG! STUDYING!?! MULTITASKING!?! WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOUUUU!!!) Yes, i know it's rather depressing to hear but ladies and genital-men, i've been studying... or so i think... but it makes the world a whole lot better just hearing it from me. doesn't it jie? i mean, many around me have NDE just hearing that i actually manage to FAIL terms. hmmm, maybe i'm just being paranoid. harharaaaa. My social points are just about averaging between the positive numerical side and the negative numerical side of the scale. Oh wait, go figure. ahhah =).
I'm feeling confused. About my sexual orientation actually. YOU see, i stomach an average of 6 kitkats a day. Strange it is cos it's a monthly thing and takes place across a few days (OMG YOU GAYBIAN!)

-POST-TUITION TRAUMA-

NoT tHe DeNtIsTTttTtttTt
The dentist visit was funnnn. Dr had to drill two holes in my molars and guess what, he sealed them back! HAHA irony!irony! I SPOTTED IT...and i still hate GP compres cos i CAN'T SPOT IRONY FOR NUTTTS... Certainly i could feel the drill head go *weeeWEEEweee * all the way down (hmmm, reminds me of that toe game my mom used to play on me when i was small) AND LIKE DUDE! ANY DEEPER AND YOU AND I WILL BE DRENCHED IN BLOOOOD! like....living thing = blood + more blood....Fortunately there wasn't any. heh (sissssy). But it was just calcium all over me when it was done. obviously. CaCHING *feels the moola floating away from daddy's wallet*... Time to get me a teeneweene tooth brush that will reach all the way back to my molars and then i can give them a good scratch every morning and night...

"TEH PENG PUAY BOTTOWW!"

2006-08-24T23:12:00.000+08:00

...off season...

. i . wan . nelo .

2006-08-13T11:09:00.000+08:00

saturday - canoe.planetshakers.malaysia

2006-08-13T09:32:00.000+08:00

i successfully swtiched my tuition timing
saturday evening instead of the usual morning
it's a good thing really
then i wouldn't have to drag my butt out of bed that early
cos i tend to make my royal entrance after 30 minutes
0830 and i go at 0900 kinda thing
actually, i feel like i don't spend enough productive time on saturdays
so to maximise it,
why not canoe in the morning and
study in the afternoon then
return back to malaysia for tuition
sounds like the better bet
besides, my new boat requires lots of TLC

RAPTORRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!
rowing in it is not as simple as it looks
or so i think
as a starter i can't really twist too much
cos when the body & paddle is almost parallel with the boat
things get really shaky
it's like learning to walk for the first time...
though i don't remember when i did start walking for the first time =)
rowing for long is an interesting feel
can't afford to day dream like people do then they are in Ts
remember: day dreaming in a K makes you loose balance
that's what i can conclude from these past few days of training
instead, i'll have to focus more
and keep every stroke, my posture, kickings in check
i think i found the best way for kicking in a K
overheard it from some national coach who was water coaching in his BeAuTiFuL BLUE K1 NELO
(I WANT NELOOOOOOOOOO)
i tried it a couple of times and it allows me to keep perfect balance
for 30 strokes at least
i'm still drilling it in my technique
keep telling myself, kick first then dip and pull
"KICK FIRST THEN DIP AND PULL"
"KICK FIRST THEN DIP AND PULL HARD"
"KICK FIRST THEN DIP AND PULL HARDER"
"KICK FIRST THEN.... EH, POSTURE, SIT UP RIGHT... DIP AND PULL YOUR HARDEST"
"WOOOOWOWWHHHHH.... okay don't cap.. hahah"
"weeeeee, that was fun, OH I SEE THE SHORE! LET ME IMPRESS THE CANOE GIRLS"
well that's how i focus most of the time
though it's obviously not the best method
but manage to complete my 10k just 2 laps behind from the other RAPTORRRRRRR
inspite of capping twice or trice
can't remember now... but i know i lost lots of training time
i'm working on balance with baby strokes
thought i'm earger to start pushing myself to the limit
my mind wants to bring me to the comfortable level of 8 strokes per buoy
land training was shameful for me
it's my breathing that sucks most
i tend to breathe like i'm about to give birth and
just waiting for the doctor to spare me from anymore pain and agony
by recommening a cesarean section...
but i owe it to jeff for sticking beside me all the way

in the evening was the planetshakers concert at the expo
it was grand and i was almost totally blown away
first live concert and i didn't know what to expect
2 hours of jumping just simply isn't enough
i was JUMPING like a mad dog and so were everyone around me
hahaha... i only jumped cos the lyrics said so
"JUMP JUMP JUMP JUMP..........JUMP!"
then i zhaoed back to malaysia

malaysia.

RAAAAAPTORRRRRRRR!!!!

2006-08-10T00:16:00.000+08:00

Today
Canoeing in the morning
Performance today was rather rubbish
K1 rowers are suppose to clock timings lesser than13 mintues for 2 KM rows
Again balance was not there and frequent tappings only means 10 seconds off the clock
Was using unnamed raptor and it was funkayyyyyy
Love it so much i wouldn't mind keeping to that boat =)
But it comes at a price
Have to really improve on my timing by alot
He has high hopes and i cannot let him down
Do not want to
Will prove it
You will see

National day evening
Went to watch fireworks with Samme outside the stadium
Realleh funkay too =)
"so pretty so pretty"
"oooh aaahhhh ooorrrrrhhhh"
Wonderful evening
The rest is our problem

2006-08-08T21:48:00.000+08:00

AC guys CAN'T PEE FOR NUTS

2006-08-03T13:34:00.000+08:00

DEFECATING in school is getting to be a chore these past few weeks. I'm a hygiene freak I admit and I'd prefer accidentally stepping on dog feaces than watching and cleaning up messy/inaccurate-precision tsunami pee aftermath conducted after that ignorant someone on a toilet bowl seat just to release my side of last nights dinner ingredients. Someone needs to urgently invent attachable weener handles and distribute it FOC. I mean, like HELLO, the bowl is 687321697216362198 times wider than you yellow/white jet stream of solution!!! LET'S DO MATH! WHAT'S THE PROBABILITY OF YOU SCORING A GOAL? 687321697216362197 DIVIDED BY 687321697216362198 WHICH IS LIKE ALOT!!!

STOP MESSING UP THE SEATS SO PEOPLE LIKE ME CAN SHIT IN PEACE!

love pecs!

WHO LET THE DOGS OUT! WHO WHO WHO WHO!

2006-07-31T01:26:00.000+08:00

some damn hot dude i was trying out clothes with =)

the same hot dude... this dude looks damn good in tanks. especially in the ones at nowurbanmale. TANK BODY BABY!!! new hair do(which still looks the same) + hot body + tank = something to die for!!!

2006-07-13T23:18:00.000+08:00

My little extreme make over. It's the first time i've had my hair done in singapore and the bill came up to SGD$12.00 (RM27.12 - which alloows me 3 hair cuts in malaysia). This salon i'm newly in love with is in the vicinity of far east plaza and i like the way they did my sides and maybe a bit of the back. My copycat attempt of the previous customer was rather unsuccessful BUT what if what i have now floats samme's boat then wearing my lifejack JUST in case BUT in any case, i LOOOOOVE my new hairdo. Most of you wouldn't notice the difference but who cares(= . I've been needing a new style for sometime now cos most of the time i get my hair done in malaysia - like one of the usual barbers i go to where the indian men spray "curry sauce" like liquids into and around your hair - AND IT'S NON-PROFESSIONAL which mean i'll end up with a "faggy loook" quotes samme. hahaha. It's really a new experience cos i never get my head washed after a cut and they do it in singapore... GOOOOOOOOD HANDS MY STYLIST HAD. I'd hire him to bathe ME if i had the money *evil grins* OMG I SOUND GAY!!!! THANK YOU SAMANTHA ANNE LEONG! OWE YOU BIG TIME =D (dear mummy, samme made me do this to myself!)

BUT still, i miss my old hair. There you have it! My fugly self in that photo. I'M sorry derrick, made you look like a stick man in the background. Oh that was taken during canoe nationals btw (= didn't do too well but i'll wait for next year where my iron biceps will conquer the whole of MAC - OMG who's that big buff boy!?!?!?!. muhuahahaha. i love myself =) (dear mummy, samme made me do this to myself too!)

"YOU'RE WATCHING EXTERME MAKE OVER WITH YOUR HOST SAMME! TODAY'S VICTIM IS A HOMEGROWN GUY FROM MALAYSIA WHO SPENT 11 DIFFICULY YEARS WITH THE EDUCATION SYSTEM ACROSS THE CAUSEWAY! IN A FEW MOMENTS, YOU'LL SEE A MAJOR TRANSFORMATION FROM FLABS TO ABS (still working on those) "

2006-06-30T01:40:00.000+08:00

To sammmmmmeeeeee... i promised you something THAT WILL TELL THE WHOLE WORLD.

I LOVE YOUUUUU BABY

tHERE YOU GOOOOOOOO!!!

2006-06-26T00:49:00.000+08:00

To me.

school's islandwide are gonna begin its new term in a few hours from now. first day at school and it already feels like the holidays are wasted on unproductive doings. what makes it more "interesting" is what you might have been through this month. too much play but it's not like you give a dang about it. currently everything feels like a standstill and nothing is going nowhere just not the way you intend it to. just you and yourself in a world where the lonely are even more ostrasized only to find the will to live an everyday chore. wouldn't it make a difference to have someone by your side sharing an experience or a life with you? but when all that is gone all you're left with is petty cash and basic amenities that serve to sustain you through a twenty four hour day. maybe on a conscious note you need to get a life. quick. and i mean it.

what made you deserve such a beating from a promising path you already lead. ignorance. negligence. unpleasing. you sure you want something not worth the effort to bogg you down? or simply wait for an answer or a mere reaction from the opposite. so what if satisfaction doesn't fall in place to your desires? needy. wanting. turn off. don't ask for too much oh you better not. whatever the matter it makes little difference now. you're moving on.

fate - i'm betting my last chip and you better be worth it.

Whaling for scientific research? i don't think so...

2006-06-21T19:41:00.000+08:00

This video shows how japanese whalers conducts it's apparent "scientific" research on whales on the brink of entinction. Thrusting explosive filled spears into your own head would be less painful for the world to watch than a whale trying to save it's life... Obviously the only conclusive "scientific research" here is to increase the economic growth for itself and its fisheries. Where's the biology, chemistry and innovation in that?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lLBolibPE4U&search=japan%27s%20scientific%20whaling
That's one whale down...

http://www.youtube.com/results?search=japan%27s+scientific+whaling&search_type=search_videos
That's another whale down... And more thousands to go...

Craig David - I'm sorry

2006-06-20T23:21:00.000+08:00

[VERSE 1]

For all the years that I've known you baby

I can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting so cold

(didn't you say)

If there's a problem we should work it out

So why you giving me the cold shoulder now

Like you don't even wanna talk to me girl

(tell me)

Ok I know I was late again

I made you mad and dinners thrown in (the bin)

But why are you making this thing drag on so long

(I wanna know)

I'm sick and tired of this silly game

(silly games)

Don't think that I'm the only one here to blame

It's not me here who's been going round slamming doors

That's when you turned and said to me

I don't care babe who's right or wrong

I just don't love you no more.

[CHORUS]

Rain outside my window pouring down

What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry

Feeling like a fool cause I let you down

Now it's, too late, to turn it around

I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry

I guess this time it really is goodbye

You made it clear when you said

I just don't love you no more

[VERSE 2]

I know that I made a few mistakes

But never thought that things would turn out this way

Cause I'm missing something now that your gone

(I see it all so clearly)

Me at the door with you in a state

(in a state)

Giving my reasons but as you look away

I can see a tear roll down your face

That's when you turned and said to me

I don't care babe who's right or wrong

I just don't love you no more.

[CHORUS]

Rain outside my window pouring down

What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry

Feeling like a fool cause I let you down

Now it's, too late, to turn it around

I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry\

I guess this time it really is goodbye

You made it clear when you said

I just don't love you no more

[BRIDGE]

Don't say those words it's so hard

They turn my whole world upside down

Girl you caught me completely off guard

On the night you said to me

I just don't love you more.

[CHORUS 2X]

Rain outside my window pouring down

What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry

Feeling like a fool cause I let you down

Now it's, too late, to turn it around

I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry

I guess this time it really is goodbye

You made it clear when you said

I just don't love you no more

Dragonboat nationals

2006-06-17T23:53:00.000+08:00

Oh yeah, i'm back home in malaysia =) Today's Dragonboat races was an emo one for me especially the mens finals. Every person in the boat was psycoed up to PULL their hardest and STRETCH FORWRD AH and PULL RIGHT BACK AH...haha...i was for sure =B... So nerve wercking i planted two kisses on my paddle shaft smack on the 'RUBBERducky' word. haha. yeah for those of you who don't know (which probably is everyone) i named my expensive db paddle that! Soon it was line up time and the organisers were PMSing BAD shouting at boats and warning them a 5 second penalty. The commands came and before i knew it it was ONEah TWOah THREEah FOURah until the first wistle for a hard ten came - silence. OH FREAK i could smell the finish line. I was close to falling off my seat five times then i had a flashback at the starting line - ep asked to counter his feet with mine if we find ourselves falling off. And so i did =) Every stroke was of ours was making the boat surge forward. Then came the three whistles for last burst. It was all over in a flash. Three months of hard training condensed into that few minutes of mind over body experience. It was all worth while!

my newbies

2006-06-12T23:34:00.001+08:00

Firstly... let me introduce you to my new pair of walkies.

brownies side view

brownies ariel view

Secondly... my new pair of runnies

Newbies ariel view

Newbies side view

world cup fever

2006-06-12T02:47:00.000+08:00

Its 0244hrs now. It's all quiet and everyone is asleep, except me of course, and all i have as noise is Corrinne May on repeat. Jeremy's high on coffee, something i had with ice before entering Singapore =) yummy. I could start turning on the television now and prepare myself to watch Angola get trashed by Portugal BUT UNFORTUNATELY non of the channels i have here in singapore seem to have a world cup channel. Even on scv other than previous matches which they tapped from the Malaysian rtm1 which had footnotes saying "Please do not adjust your television screen. blah blah blah is induced by blah blah blah which *hub recieved. Sorry for any inconvenience caused". Too much i tell you! First they don't show Live matches and now they blame Malaysia for bad recordings of previous matches. ARSES!!! So now i'm settling for *hub's "Live Commentary" where they POST TAGS of goals and saves and fouls and send offs. And of course theres the scores. (OOH the match just started... heh...)

3 more hours till dragonboat training in SDBA. Paddling with conjunctivitis is definately worth looking forward to =) and now they're telling us to bring our own sponges to sit on so that you won't suffer cysts filled sores on your butt. I don't realy find sponging effective though cos most of the time we're on the verge of standing especially through the last burst. Sponges are ment for canoeing!!! where standing isn't and option and sitting is mandatory. Or else epidermal cells will die and exfoliation/self-shedding becomes an issue to an extend that you'd be peeling and medical cream can only serve to relief and GPs recommend an appointment with specialists. A butt-o-my-god-i'm-peeling surgeon. If peeling's on the feet then i'd understand but BUTT?!?!

OOOH PORTUGAL 1 - ANGOla 000000... WHIPP YOUR ARSEEEEEEEEEE

My holidays aren't holidays at all. Too many activities in Singapore and too litle time to spend back in Malaysia. To an extend that my parents have to miss out on my aunt's BAZHANGs which are probably infested with maggots and microscopic ecoli as we speak. Sucks studying across the straits really =( except for the fact that i have relatives who COOK GOOOOOOD FOOOOOD. haha. My diet is coming along well too! low carb low fat low this and low that!!! sometimes i might as well not eat at all (Hey good idea!). I need surgery on my mouth, like pea size it instead of that gastrosomething surgery which surgically reduces your stomach to pea size! My MOUTH is too big and getting bigger and demands alot more that bite sized food. Maybe i should take up Gastronomy.

ANGOLA HAS 10 FOULS!!! OMG THEY MUST SUCK...HAHAHAHA... PORT - U - GAL.ahahaha sounds soooo wrong. anyway.

Kay i'm gonna sleep now... this is getting tiring... seriously...
Samme come home quick! 3ams aren't that fun anymore =)

My chinese is improving.

2006-06-06T17:06:00.000+08:00

I can write now =)

I need detoxification

2006-05-31T16:49:00.000+08:00

DETOXIFICATION. I need to do just that! ever felt like diluting your fatful meals by simply drinking plain water and hope that you'd never have to worry about a bulging belly? It's happening to meee. Just got back from a session with my PWgroup members at a junk food outlet and i had POT BELLY servings.
.
my mind's blank.

My BA-CHANG fantasy

2006-05-30T10:25:00.000+08:00

OH YEAH! I think dumpling season is approaching. My relatives are whipping up GoRgEoUs little/enormous DUMPLINGS for my breakfast... OH DID I SAY BREAKFAST MABEL??? ohhh i think i diiiid *evil grins*... Imagine waking up to a PLATE of ready to eat BA-CHANGS every morning *melts* ahhhhhhhhh... Dumplings have a NONG NONG history (hahahaha, just love NONG NONGing) that dates back to when this damn HOT and CHIO goddess comitted suicide in a river back in china... something like that larrr... or was that for mooncake festival? argh heck! I'm more interested in the dumplings =) it TURNS ME ON! oohh... glutinus rice, chestnut, PORK, mushrooms and more glutinus riceeeee.

To: the goddess that died.

Thank goodness you did! you're my lifesaver =)

From: Your hardcore fan.

*measures waist line*

*gasp*

2006-05-29T22:20:00.000+08:00

That's what i call a DRAGONBOAT PADDLE

WHO TOOK MY DRAGONBOAT PADDLE!!!

2006-05-27T22:28:00.000+08:00

Feels like a decade without me aye!!! hahaha... I'm back from the dead *jumps for joy* and finally i have time to scribble my little sweet nothings into what bloggers call a BLOG (told you it means nothing...kay, not funny). Too much has happened lately.

DRAGONBOAT/CANOEING
Oh yeah, for those of you who harldy knew i existed, i'm in the above mentioned. It's coming along fine and our nationals are around the corner. Mid June. We're training hard now for what i can tell cos i'm finding it hard keeping up with the programme and MOST OBVIOUSLY with the fact that i'm-a-freakin-malaysian-and-cannot-attend-saturday-trainings-which-is-the-most-important-of-all-the-four-trainings-i-have-in-a-week. It's not something i should be proud off. oh no. no indeed... *evil grins*... It's holiday period now and today is the begining of it. Trainings are gonna be more intense from what i heard and we're having a camp sometime soon followed by a chalet immediately after. one full week of canoeing activities. GoOdNeSs. Not that i'm complaining. oh no. no indeed. =)... We recently got our DB paddles, after weeks of waiting, they had to give it out on a SATURDAY!!! and i'm so excited to say that I HAVEN'T GOTTEN MINE YET!!! WHO TOOK MY PADDLE!!! DON'T MAKE ME PADDLE WACK YOU WHEN I LAY HANDS ON IT!!!...i'm gonna name you rubberDUCKY paddle, don't worry!

TBC!!!

what life is about

2006-05-09T15:40:00.000+08:00

This is what i call an AWARD-WINNING picture courtesy of ME! This is the only picture that would naturally express my life during the first three months in ACJC. But don't worry, i never attempted this stunt. (kay, i know this isn't a real post but heck, i'm still waiting for inspiration... I JUST HAD TO DO THIS, DARNIT FRANNY!!! hahahahaha =D)

2006-05-08T11:26:00.000+08:00

samme's right beside me now... and i'm about to ask her what i sould enter into my blog posting next... "so samme, what should i add into my blog posting next?you wanna be featured in it or should i spare you from questioning by my relatives?"says me... samme replies "up to you lorzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!z!!!! eh your entire family reads you blog and and your grandfather and your grandmother.. you need to take typing classes... *laughs* see i told you".

hello ah gong, ah mah, uncle, auntie etc etc! :D -samme

something's up

2006-05-02T08:18:00.000+08:00

"ALRIGHT PEOPLE! point taken...
bug me somemore about updating and i'll...err..."

ffeeeelliinngg bblluuee

2006-04-20T19:23:00.000+08:00

Haha... i ponned school today! but it's for a valid reason. My alarms sounded this morning and i woke up and diagnosed myself unfit for school. Then i returned to bed. Yes, i had a bad sore throat and was feeling very under the weather. So when i woke up, i PAID a visit to the neighbourhood doc just across the street. He prescribed me 3 medications - 16 pacofen tablets, 30 amoxicillin 250mg capsules and 10 trachisan lozenges (which say "SUCK 1 TAB 4 TIMES A DAY").

day rating : 4/10
(sick, pissed, bored, sleepy and heck-careish)